Out of control feelings

Hello

2 AM, rainy, Detroit, 2 years its been ever since androids and humans merged together, today was like any other, androids working alongside humans, Hank chugging down yet another bottle at another one of his bars with surprisingly Connor at his side, his LED glowing red showing that he deep in thought, whatever happened tonight sure has moved him at the edge of his seat, Hank looks over with a small worried glare.
"You good Connor?" with no response he nudged the android repeating his question. "Hey...you alright there?" Connor looked at him and with no response he got off his seat and stormed out of the bar.
"Wai- ugh. See you at home I guess" Hank put his hands on his head slowly receiving a headache from all the alcohol hes been drinking.
Meanwhile Connor rushes through the storm towards one peculiar house seeking for comfort with these overwhelming emotions hes been holding back, everyday a new feeling and old ones coming back with a stronger punch.
He stood for a minute before knocking on the door.

2 AM, thunder claps outside of your circular shaped aesthetic window, rain gently taps against the glass of your window as youre woken up by a faint knock on your front door, who would be at YOUR house at this time of night, without a single care in the world you put your robe on and shuffle down the stairs towards the door, a singular silhouette fills you with delight as you recognize a soft glow of red, you open the door to Connor soaking wet with a worried look on his face, is he..panting? 
"Good afternoon- what a nice night we're having right (Y/N)?" He gives you a gentle smile but its visibly forced. 
You give him a soft sigh as you grab his tie and pull him inside, to your surprise he did not resist but let his weight fall, he gave off a small yelp being incredibly distracted which filled you with worry.
"Connor are you okay? You seem unbelievably off-" You look at him and study his physical state, his hair and clothes are sagging and are soaking wet, you start taking his clothes off starting with his jacket.
"Youre soaking wet hun...you'll catch a col-" you let go as your words trail off, your face flushed in red as you remember that he an android he clearly doesnt care if hes soaked, he doesnt feel cold, he'll never feel sick.
"Im so sorry...I-" Youre cut off as Connor interrupts you
"It's okay (y/n), really. I wouldnt like to soak anything in your house" He starts to take his clothes off and youre face to face with Connors chest. You try to keep your head out of the clouds as you rush upstairs and yell out "I'll get you some clothes!!!"
By the time you get back Connor has already squeezed and folded his clothes ontop of the kitchen counter and sat on the couch waiting for your return, you place a pair of shorts and a T-shirt on his knees and clear your throat as you sit next to him waiting for him to get dressed.
" Well? What is it? What's got you troubled?" You noticed his LED hasnt changed colors so something troubling sure is still on his mind.
He looks at you and opens his mouth only to shut it quickly, looking away he fixes his hair giving a soft huff.
"Hank and I were assigned a Homicide of a couple of androids. Something like this wouldnt bother me, someone dies at one point..but...when someone says a couple I expect maybe one or two, but when we got to the crime scene..it was like a nightmare. The floor was painted with blue blood, androids shot...decapitated, cut open..." his words trail off but he gains enough strength to regain his ground.
"I had to step out...and thankfully so did Hank. I wanted to talk to him about this but it would have seemed that he was more distracted by the bottle that he was emptying. you were the second person I wanted to come to..."
You hold his hand which brings his attention to you, he stares at you tears slowly forming in his eyes. 
"In that moment...I didnt picture the other androids..no..I saw all the past Connors, all my mistakes, I heard Amandas voice echoing in my head. I know Kamski removed her from my programing a long long time ago..but what ive done..cant be fixed." He removes his hand from yours and puts them on his knees.
"What if..at one point...I'll be one of them...on the floor..in my own pool of failure, no other spare Connor model to transfer myself to..." He looks at you once more with tears rolling down his cheeks.
"I dont want to die (Y/N)..."
In an instant you hold him and cradle him like a child, you feel him quivering, every sob he released made you hold him tighter, his tears running down your shirt like a waterfall, but you didnt mind. You knew that letting it out is better than keeping it in.
After 3 minutes of you holding each other, Connor puts his hands on your waist which catches you off guard making your face glow bright red.
"C-Connor are you..feeling better?"
He looks up at you his face different from before, more needy. The look on his face makes your chest tighten. Something about this face kind of...turns you on.
"Hey..buddy..are you okay? I um...I can get you something to cool off...your chest seems to be warmer than usual-" Your words are cut off with Connors shaky tone.
"When I imagined myself dying. I thought about all the people that I'd lose forever...Hank...Sumo..."
A small pause came between you and his eyes locked with yours.
"You..."
Your stomach feels like it just dropped off a skyscraper, youve never seen him this vulnerable before, you recieve a sudden urge to hold him tighter but your next move isnt what you intended it to be. In an instant you lock your lips with his leaving him speechless and wide eyed, you felt wrong, he was so new to these emotions and doing this must be overwhelming him with so much confusion. You pull back to apologize but to your surprise Connor extends his arms wrapping one around your waist and the other around the back of your neck pulling you in for another kiss.
He pulls back quickly to utter a small phrase. "I want to stay alive for you."
Something inside you snaps and you push him down leaving him speechless.
From your view he looks as vulnerable as ever, you wish to do so many things to him but are left confused and alittle bit conflicted. Hes an android, and also he wasnt built for pleasure, so youre unsure how to please him when there is nothing to ease him of his desire. He reads your face and understands your position, in an instant you find yourself at the bottom, feels weird but seeing him above you makes you burn even hotter