Character info: Little to nothing is known about Suzami. Other than she left her unknown village for unknown reasons and that she exceeds in tracking. Something which caused her to be welcomed in to the Akatsuki. Though Suzami keeps mostly to herself, she has a deep relationship with Deidara and a less deep but still clear friendship with Kakuzu and on occasions, Sasori and Hidan.
For the last time, I knocked on the door. The tips of my knuckles sore.
Deciding against trying anything else, I left. If he didn't want to talk about it, us, then maybe there was no 'it' or 'us'. Maybe that moment had been a waste of emotions and time and I had just let myself get lost in a love sick feeling for someone who all in all would never fall for a girl like me to begin with. Just caught up in another dream.
After all. What was I to him? A team mate? A partner in crime? Or just a girl that gets his passing fancy? Because it sure looked that way. For all I knew he found me annoying or something.
But it was just a day ago that we admitted our feelings for each other. Or, maybe I had and he had gone along for fun or to shut me up. For the first time I felt something strong for a guy and it ended like fire and ice. He was melting me to my core and it felt like I was dying.
How childish was he anyway? I knew he was in there, I saw him go in when I left my room. He just really didn't want to know now.
I sighed, leaning against the wall by my own door trying not to feel the pain inside my chest.
I screwed up.
Oh yes...
Walking towards me down the hall a dark figure watched. In my mind, I could already hear the speech. 'Love is useless, pathetic and below the dimensions of the intellectual power'. And maybe he was right, but for once Kakuzu didn't say it, he simply stood in front of me.
His eyes bored down, like he was reading a book and it was clear what had happened.
They slowly lifted from me, to his door, and a some what angry glare filtered across. Or was it annoyance? I couldn't be sure any more.
"So... he won't even open the door or talk... The boy calls himself a man?"
And with nothing else said to her he passed Suzami by, but when he reached Deidara's door, his fist shot out and slammed into the wood, making it shudder and groan under the pressure.
"YOU'RE A COWARD, DEIDARA!"
And he carried on walking down the corridor. Without word nor look back towards me.
Finding it enough for one night, the air grew thick. Lord knows how long I had been cooped up in the hotel. It was bad enough we were travelling for so long, but now this? Wasn't I allowed a break?
Quickly, so no one could ask questions I left the hotel, searching for a quiet, calm and relaxing place. Just anywhere where I could be alone and let myself think over the feelings and what to do with them, because they didn't seem to be doing me any good.
......
When I walked back in, there was no one but the hotel owner in sight. He bowed deep and smiled, like we were so valuable as customers. For a hotel out so far in a place no one had heard of before, I could only imagine.
With nothing but a nod back, I headed straight for my room. It was strange that no one was out. Not Kakuzu, Hidan, Sasori or... him. So far the smallness of the hotel had made it impossible to not at least see one of them about since we started staying here.
