Fullsun.

Purple lights

I always wondered why there were red and blue lights on this specific street, I'm not complaining, they make a pretty shade of violet. We see white and yellow lights so very often that we find red and blue lights interesting and unique.

For those of you who are wondering, it's midnight right now, I'm at the bus stop with the pretty lights, thinking about leaving everything, I'm sitting on the most uncomfortable bench and top of me was a red light, I like how the shade of red reflects on my face, it kind of shows my an emotion that's dominating me right now. Anger.

As I get lost in my thoughts, I didn't notice that someone has joined me. He was sitting across the bench, right on top of him? A blue light. I guess he had a lot on his mind too, he was staring into nothingness just as I was seconds ago.

I'm thinking of interacting with him, don't talk to strangers they say, this feels right, he feels right. Will he think I'm crazy? Will he get weirded out? Will he recognize me? (I'll explain that later)

I take my lighter and pack of cigarettes out of the pocket of my bag.

"Cigarettes?" I offered him as I lit the cigar that's between my lips with the white lighter.

He looked at me and bit his lip, he has beautiful eyes, I can't really see what color they are, but they look amazing under the blue lights.

"How can such a pretty girl like you, smoke cigarettes? That's bad for you. That'll kill you, you know"  He said with a bit of a smile on the corner of his lips guess he doesn't like smoking. He has an accent, it's Australian.

"That's why I smoke" I replied with a smirk plastered across my lips.

"I'm Kyle." He introduced himself while moving closer to me.

"Talia." Our thighs were now touchings, and you might think I'm crazy but this still feels right.

We're suddenly acting like we've known each other for a long time, we shared the same likings yet our opinions are so different. We had a connection, a strong one. Not just an "I get a vibe" type of thing, we had sparks, and we both wanted more from each other.

I suddenly grabbed his hand and I told him to run with me. We ran for the longest time, our hands intertwined together, we felt like nothing could stop us, we didn't care about the world that was going on around us. In short, we had no fucks to give.

We ran to the top of this hotel building that we checked in, we didn't need the room, we didn't even go inside of it, I sat at the edge of the building and we looked at the sun that was beginning to rise, we just sat there while we cuddled in each others embrace.

His arms are wrapped around me, i feel the safest here, but i have to go,i really want to stay, but this isn't the right time for all of this. He doesn't even know my real name. (I'll tell you a little story later)

I looked up at him and gently put my hand to cup his cheek, I can now see his eyes clearly, they were the most beautiful brown  eyes, they sparkled like gems, my cheek were heating up as I slowly leaned in to kiss him, my hands traveled from his cheek to his hair. I can tell that he likes things rough, he deepened the kiss, and I was running out of oxygen to breathe

I pulled away, and first thing he says is "you taste like strawberries and cigarettes, I love that". (AN: i really love that song so don't @ me)

We were clearly both smiling like idiots and we stayed in silence after that, I was biting my lips while thinking of all the things we did together.

//earlier//

"What hobbies do you have? sorry for the basic question, I'm just really curious" I asked Kyle, we were talking about nonsense things, it's always fun to know what people like.

"I like playing the drums. I'm actually in a band, you've probably never heared of us but we're called "killing dolls".

"I like the band name, it's kinda creepy though" I chuckled.
"I won't argue with that, 'killing dolls' is pretty terrifying. What about you? Any hobbies that you like?" He asked me. 

"Uh, yeah, I like to um, I like to sing alot and uh- sometimes I model, nothing big." I stuttered, I wasn't completely lying, only the last part is a lie.

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I break the silence between us as I said goodbye to Kyle, this has been a great time but I can't stay with him, I want to, but I can't.

"Goodbye, talia." After he said that, I ran as fast as I can to my car, not even looking back once.
I drove away as I was thinking of Kyle, I hope we find a way back together. After all, I am very easy to find on the internet.

I haven't told you my real name.

I'm Phoenix. Noemi Phoenix Bonavich.

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I am so bad at writing wtf.

Anywaysss, thank u for reading my shitty writing, sorry for the short chapters, it'll get better.

I loveyou so so muchh (i mean it :))