Just Friends?

Chapter 2: Thats It, Im Over Him

After my mom picked me up from school, she knew immediately something was wrong. I always say how my mom doesn't know me, but she really does when it's important.

As I lay in my bed in my room as I have been for the past two hours since I got home, I begin to realize how badly I was treated by Cade.

It's not like he physically abused me, but he would make comments every once in a awhile that eventually took a larger toll on my self esteem than I would like to admit. "oh my gosh, Ella, you're so stupid" "hey chubby cheeks" "don't kill yourself over it" But I'm sick of letting a guy's opinion of me dictate how I am. I'm sick of letting Cade, Jaxon, and all the other dick-heads at my school and in my life tower over me and ruin my life. I've hated myself and took so much shit that wasn't my fault or my problem out on myself and it's not fair to my mentality or my body.

Just as I reach for my phone to delete and block Cade's number that I'm thankful I never memorized, I get a text from the bastard.

Cade: Hey, I just wanted you to know that even though we broke up, I'm still here if you need to talk. Please keep your promise to me and stay clean.

I roll my eyes at his text and reply:

I haven't kept that promise in a long time, but don't worry. I'm done cutting myself over you.

Yeah that may seem harsh, but I'm mad. Sue me. truthfully, i haven't thought about about self harm once today, and that's a big accomplishment. maybe I'm too busy thinking about cade, or maybe, just maybe, the months of him ignoring me and giving me false hope being put to an end is the push and wake up call i need to realize i deserve better than Cade's hateful comments, rude remarks, and bad attitude that eventually made me hate myself all over again.

That's it, I'm over him. I'm over cade and the shitty way he made me feel. i may still be pathetically crying over this pathetic boy, but its only to get the closure i need to be truly over him once and for-all.

Wow... i don't feel happy exactly, but i feel more free than i have since Jaxon and that's a start. i decide to text jace and tell him of my new self-discovery.

Me: Hey!!

Jace: hey, you seem...energetic... for what happened today..?

I shake my head in amusement at the text before replying back:

Well yeah, i realized that Cade didn't treat me how i deserve to be treated. I'm done with him.

Jace: wow so you're over him, just like that? when did that happen?

Me: just now actually, so yeah I'm over him :)

Jace: good, I'm proud of you Ells :) soo who do you like now? ;P

My heart starts to beat faster as my eyes scan over my iPhone screen and my brain comprehends the words. i like jace, obviously, but how can i tell him when his best friend and i just broke up? besides, what if he doesn't like me? i cant risk loosing jace, not again.

Me: umm... idk O.O

Jace: oh yes you do ;) tell me the name of the lucky bastard ;)

out of sheer reaction and impulse, i type and send my message without thinking:

he doesn't go to our school, but we are really close friends and idk if i want to risk loosing our friendship for trying at something more, if he even likes me back...

Jace: he'd be stupid not to like you back. tell me about him and if he hurts you he'll hurt a thousand times worse once i find him.

i get the biggest butterflies- no, i get the whole freaking zoo- in my stomach as i read the first part over and over again. i also get the biggest smile as i read the next part. i don't care if hes saying this in a protective big brother way, he cares and i'll take it.