How Can I Do It?

How Can I...

How can I do it? How can I do it if I always think of you?

How can I do it? How can I do it if I always talk about you?

How can I do it? How can I do it if I always get drunk and tell myself I still love you?

'How Can I.. How Can I.. How Can I..' I thought.

It's already half at Midnight and I'm still at this Alcohol-smell like place.

Out of the blue, there's a guy walking towards me, even though I didn't look at him. He sat beside me and asked, "What's the problem, Miss?"

I just shook at him.

"Come on, Miss. You can tell me anything. I'll try to help you with your problem."

A slight smile was formed by my lips. I let out a laugh, and said, "Thank you for that, but I'm really sorry."

Out of the blue, I suddenly felt like it's raining. And I just realized that I'm now crying.

"Here", he said and hand me a tissue. "I'm still here, Miss. I missed you."

'I missed you.. I missed you.. I missed you..' I thought. My eyebrows suddenly met. Curiousity entered my mind. 'Why would he miss me if we only met a while ago?' I thought some more.

"Jasmine.."

I got shocked when he said my name. I didn't know what to do next. Should I speak? Should I run?

I don't know what happened but, My head is slowly turning to face the guy. And tears are suddenly to fall again. I hate what I'm seeing right now.

"Jasmine Salvador, I missed you. Please come back to me?" he said. He looked so sincere.

How can I do it? How can I move on when you're infront of me begging to come back?