Chapter one
~~~~ambers pov~~~
I held my tears in as i dug the knife into my wrist cutting slowly but not too deep. I may sound emo but its the only thing that ll calm me down, no one knows about this and i usually hide the scars under long sleeve tops everyone thought of me as the happy go lucky girl. But they dont know this side of me, my throat started to tighten and ached tears were strolling down my
Cheeks, i never told any of my friends about this because i thought they d think of me as a freak..the reason why im doing this is because i go through alot of depression..because of what happened between my family..my mother died 2 months ago of cancer...im still not over it i miss her more than anything in the world. She was the only one who could understand me and read me like a book even if i was lying. Ever since she left things became more different my father now abuses me and curses at me it feels like im living in hell, i glanced at the mirror my brown perfect straight hair was now tangled and i had a couple of cuts on my arm and a
Big bruise underneath my eye its never been this bad before, i gulped and was
Shaking my lifes screwed up why cant i be like those multi famous people who doesnt have to worry about everything and have rich and happy lives why im stuck here feeling trapped in a cage of depression and anger. I have no one here for me i felt lonely, i hugged a teddy bear and rocked back and forth on the floor in the corner,
"amber!," dads harsh voice said i gulped nervously and cleaned myself up abit and slid on a long sleeve top so i can cover my cuts. "w-w-what," i asked shakingly, he yanked my hair and pushed me onto the couch i rubbed my head where he pulled my hair, " i got a call today from the school office why havent you been at school for the past two weeks!" he shouted, i gulped nervously and i bit my lip then finally answered, "i-i-i've been visiting mums grave..," a tear scrolled down my cheek, then i felt a sharp sting on my cheek leaving it all red, he slapped me.."your mums not important at the moment i thought you was some skank meeting up with boys ya slut," he told me harshly..anger started to build up inside of me i couldnt hold it in then i bursted without thinking "excuse me im no slut you fucking prick i ve neer had sex before and i hate you you just dont understand how much you make me suffer you cunt!" i yelled straight into his face,
His face turned red with anger. " now you listen to me you never tal like that to me again or there'll be consequences.." he trailed off getting a knife i gulped but encouragment built up inside of me "i cant take this anymore!" i shouted and marched out of the loungeroom into the kitchen, "if you re gonna be like that then get out of this house i only look after you for money get out then," as he pulled my hair and pushed me outside in the cold and slammed the door in my face. I could her my heart pumping
Tears were strolling down my cheeks. My eyes were puffy and sore and my throat was aching, i walked up the drive way and marched off into no where at least i was away from him. Me being clumbsy as i am ran into someone causing me to fall and
Scrape my knee i sat up and rubbed my knee that was bleeding abit.." oh my god i am so sorry," a very mature voice said he held out his hand and i grabbed it and he pulled me up. " its okay im clumbsy anyway and thanks," i said giving him a weak smile. He had straight brown hair with amazing brown eyes i could get lost in them any second i shook my self out of the glance as he said " no it was my fault here i ll take you home," i gulped and had a worried look on my face i was shaking im never going back to my dad never again. " um...i dont have a home," i mumbled softly but he still heard it,
He gave me a questioning look and i just put on a weak smile you can tell it was fake. He wrapped his arms around me pulling me into a hug i know i only just met him but his hugs were the best and realy warm i could just stay there forever holding him. I pulled myself out of the hug "what happened?" he asked sadly,,"well..." i told him everything about mum and dad and the stuff goin on between my family and how dad abused me i even showed him the marks and bruises not borthering to show my cuts and his eyes widened. After i was done all he could say was.."im so sorry for what you had to go through i really am not everyone has a happy life," he said trying to cooe me. " i dont know how im going to live
Now i have no home food nor water," i sighed plopping
Down on a bench near by we walked as we talked. His face lit up like he won the lottery and had a
Massive grin on his face ive got a crazy idea you can come live with us!!" he shouted woah i never expected that i only met him like what couple hours ago but i felt like i could trust him hes not like the other guys hes more
Serious and very hot should i say. " thats just crazy i mean i dont even know you or your name," i said chuckling abit, " oh how rude of me the names liam liam payne," he said sounding very mature i froze right where i was looking at him he was liam payne off one direction eek fangirling! Please dont make it that obvious.."and your name is?" he asked snapping me out of my thoughts i felt like i was gonna die " im amber amber louise nichols i said sounding stuck up. He chuckled and i chuckled along with him as well, for some reason i know i met liam a couple of hours ago but beig with his and receiving his hugs was the best time i ever had i had a strange feeling inside of me and i knew what that was...but im just going to deny it for now i only met him i ll leave it for a couple of days..i muttered to my self crap did i just say that out loud leave what?" he asked "nothing.." i added quickly he smiled i loved his smile it was gorgeous i smiled back, " well is it a yes?" he asked nervously. Why would he be nervous that kept me thinking "well i dont know..i dont want to be a pity on you.." i said worrying. "no you wont trust me we ll enjoy your company and we have room for one more," he said confidently. I smiled wait we who was we. " um we?" i questioned him " the lads of course harry loui and that" he said. I smiled "well okay i ll go but i left my stuff at home and i, i repeat NEVER coming back to that house again!" i yelled shockingly he chuckled how was that funny well it was good i make him laugh it made me feel special ugh what am i saying. "we ll go shopping tomorrow now come on its getting late," he said and we both walked up to his car and hopped in and drove off to his place the lads and him are havig a break for 3 months and was staying at his place since it was massive like a
Mansion. My mouth fell open as we pulled up i closed it instantly as he noticed..he chuckled "never seen anything like this?" he asked i shook my head "nothing at all," i replied looking
Around the house it had a massive backyard and a massive swimming pool he grabbed my hand and led me towards the door.
A/N hey guys i gave up on my other fanfic love because it was stupid i hope this one was better i ll update tomorrow i hope you liked it and dont forget to fan comment or vote it d mean alot to me
Thanks love yous all <3 xox
-abby xox
