After The End (TomTord au)

Tord's Return #One

Tom Point Of View: In Tom's Apartment

Your so pathetic… you can't get over that stupid communist bastard even after a year. You've just been drinking yourself to sleep every night, hoping you won't wake up in the morning. You killed the one person you ever loved. You killed him. You killed Tord. Next thing that's going to happen is that Edd and Matt are going to leave you as well. Edd and Matt aren't your friends, they just feel bad for your sorry ass. No one loves you, why don't you just die already.

I lay on my bed, staring up at the celling, my thoughts continuing to tell me to die, and that I am pathetic and unloved. Tears stream down my face to my ears. I always try so hard to be happy, or act happy, around Edd and Matt to make them happy, but at the end of the day I drown in my tears and sorrow. I want the pain to stop, I want to forget about the 'incident', forget about Tord. I don't even know how I feel in love with him. I would always hide behind my fake wall of hate to cover my true feelings. Look where that got me. The last words my love heard from me play clearly in my head.

I am not your friend!

The words repeat over and over in my head, making the tears flow even faster down my face. I lay with silent tears falling fast down my face.

"I am not your friend" I mumble to myself.

Seeing as this usually helps me calm down, I start singing.

"I heard there was a secret chord, that David played and it pleased the Lord, but you don't really care for music, do you?" I begin in nothing more than a whisper.

"Well it goes like this, the fourth, the fifth, the minor fall, the major lift, the baffled king composing Hallelujah" I continue, getting a little louder.

"Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah" I begin singing to the best of my capability and my head clears from all other thoughts except staying on tune.

"Well, your faith was strong but you needed proof, you saw her bathing on the roof, her beauty in the moonlight overthrew ya" I begin getting lost in the song.

"She tied you to her kitchen chair, she broke your throne and she cut your hair, and from your lips, she drew the Hallelujah!" I become completely lost in the song.

"Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, well baby, I've been here before, I've seen this room and I've walked this floor, I used to live alone before I knew ya, and I've seen your flag on the marble arch, and live is not a victory march, it's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah! Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah. Well, maybe there's a God above, but all I've even learned from love, was how to shoot somebody who outdrew ya, and it's not a cry that you hear at night, It's not somebody who's seen the light, it's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah! Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah! Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujaaahh" I finish the song and catch my breath.

A clapping from the other side of my room by the window makes me jump about a foot off my bed in surprise. I look over and see a male just a bit taller than me, with horn shaped hair, a bright red hoodie, black jean pants, and checkered shoes near the same as mine. The person I believe to be dead at my hands, Tord Larsson.

"I have never told this before, but your voice is the most beautiful thing I have ever heard before" Tord says.

"W-where did you come from, Commie? Y-your supposed to be dead!" I shriek.

"That's mighty rude, don't you think, Jehovah? I simply came through the window. Unless I'm not welcome, then I will just go back through the window and be on my way" Tord says, motioning towards the open window.

"W-Wait! Please, don't leave" I beg.

"Very well then Thomas, I will stay. I also got you a gift or two" Tord says.

"A gift? Why? Where?" I ask.

"I just thought since I haven't seen you in a year, I figured it wouldn't hurt to get you some gifts. Look, Tom, I am so sorry about the giant robot 'incident'. I was so stupid and all I thought I needed was power but what I really needed was something I already had, it was you three. I knew I had made a mistake once I did it but I didn't know how to say sorry. I left the army and everything because all I want is to have all of us together again. The gifts are outside, if you want me to go get them" Tord suggests.

"Okay, sure, but first, come here" I say.

"Okay" Tord says.

Tord walks over to me and I stand up. We both stand there for a moment until I wrap my arms around Tord and pull him into a tight hug. He hesitates a moment before hugging me back.

"I could never bring myself to hate you, no matter what you did. After the 'incident', I missed you with all of my heart and the days and nights all went by in a big blur because all I could think about was you, and now your here, with me. I thought you died, I thought I killed you, I wanted to die" I ramble into Tord's chest.

Tears once again start leaking from my 'eyes'.

"Shhh, it's okay, it's okay" Tord attempts to calm me down.

"P-pleaee don't leave me again T-Tord. Please d-don't leave me" I sob into his chest.

"I promise I will never leave ever again, min kjærlighet" Tord promises.

"Wait, what does that mean?" I ask.

"All in good time, kjærlighet" Tord whispers.