Every day I'm fading away little by little...
U don't see this...
U can't...
I'm hiding this from U.
That's better for both of us.
Deep, deep inside I know that U don't want to see this.
It's normal, no one wanna see sad and bad things.
I'm not even angry at U.
There's no need...
U have right to pretend a blind fool...
U can't stop it, U can't stop me.
It's too late for anything.
I was made form glass and I threw away myself.
I'm in million pieces now.
No one can make me whole even U.
Don't be sad just leave it, leave me in the past and just let it all go.
I'm done...
I guess I was wrong about my life.
U can leave me.
U have to leave me.
I'm on the ground and paralyzed.
I forgot how to be happy, but U still have chance to do it.
This sad face is my... No it's not a mask... Not this time...
Just let me go.
Let me fade away...
Just forget about me.
Just forget about my existence.
Yeah I know U tried many times I saw it.
That's quiet nice from Ur side.
But no matter what U will do or what U will say I will not change my mind.
I will still keep trying to fade away...
Not because I want hurt U or something...
Just because that's my secret dream...
And now I'm ready to do this.
Now it's my time.
For once in my life I want to do something for myself.
Remember once U asked me why I like the rain so much...
Now I can tell U...
I love the rain because then, at least then I'm not alone.
I'm not crying alone, the sky cries with me.
I literally hate the person I've become.
Yeah I hate myself so fucking much...
I'm so damn empty inside...
Nothing left in me...
I'm dead inside...
I'm not good enough to anyone...
I'm not good enough for U...
I'm not good to live...
I'm only good enough for fading away little by little...
Loneliness is my best friend, my only friend...
No one event knows what goes on up inside my head...
Oh I'm sorry Miss D. you're with me too, all the time... your arms are so warm even when I'm sleeping.
You're arms holding me so tide, too tide I can't breathe...
But I'm not fighting with you... not anymore...
Maybe I just need a break...
In the end I'm only human...
So how much I can take?
How much I should take?
But I'm to weak, I can't take it any longer...
U can't expect more form me.
I'm in pain so much for so long...
That's too much, even for me...
Just leave me...
I dream to fill nothing...
But secretly I beg for help...
And sercetly I'm fading away every day...
Cuz my biggest sin in existing...
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