Addiction

Why didn't you tell me?

Jumin was stunned for a moment at another hug coming from Zen, it was so unlike the actor to be this nice and the fact Zen was offering to comfort him was a huge step in their relationship. He really did appreciate this and he hugged Zen back as he began to speak softly "I'm fine...yes i did do stupid shit but i'm going to get better but may i ask one thing?" Zen looked up into Jumin's dark eyes and had to stop himself from blushing "S-sure, what is it tr- Jumin?". Jumin couldn't help but smile a bit at Zen trying so hard to not call him names "Can you stay here for a bit and even just watch a movie with me? I forgot how much i miss being around others.." The actor looked at Jumin and gently nodded, he wasn't expecting this request but he was happy to help Jumin out anyway. This was a rare moment for the two of them and Zen let his impulsive thoughts take over and he planted a kiss on Jumin's cheek quickly as he thought this may help. He looked at Jumin and asked a simple question "why didn't you tell me?" 

Jumin wasn't sure how to answer, he just looked down at his hands for a moment and sighed softly to himself before he finally had an answer for him "I thought you hated me and would hate me even more if i told you what was going on if i'm honest" Zen should have expected this and was preparing for this answer but it still hurt him a little knowing that Jumin couldn't even open up to Zen even when they had been friends for about 4 years now. Zen looked into the taller male's eyes once more and spoke with a sincere tone "Jumin, you can tell me anything, i don't care what's going on with me, if you're feeling shitty then please tell me okay?" Jumin then nodded and sighed heavily as he lay down on the couch in the living room. Zen couldn't help but chuckle and then he looked over "Hey trust fund put on that movie for me that you were talking about"

After hearing Zen speak, Jumin got up and went to find the DVD he had, it was one of his many secrets but Jumin was a secret fan of Zen's performances and he decided to put his favourite one on. He couldn't help it, Jumin had a soft spot for good acting and a good plot. As Jumin was putting this on, Zen looked round again and he saw something he knew he wasn't meant to, as usual since Zen had a big personality he flipped out and yelled "JUMIN HAN YOU BASTARD YOU'RE DOING DRUGS?" Jumin stopped in his tracks and dropped the remote from his hand. He felt his face go pale, well even paler than what it already was and he stood up and couldn't look Zen in the eyes. "I-I'm sorry...it was a very impulsive thing, i haven't done it in a few weeks, i don't know why i did it was handed to me at a bar" Zen was furious and he tried to calm down and stop himself from punching Jumin in the face, but it was too late, his body acted before his mind and he punched Jumin in the jaw, he wasn't proud of it and it tore his heart in two but he wasn't going to see the man he loved throw his life away to drugs. "Jumin you idiot!! Why didn't you tell me?! I could have helped!!" 

After the impact Jumin just wiped his mouth a little and looked up at Zen, he clearly couldn't feel much anymore but it was obvious his heart was broken "because it's pathetic that's why! It's utterly disgusting but i was using it since V died to help mask the pain, it helped, please don't tell anyone" He looked at the white haired male with pleading eyes, this was his call for help but Zen let the anger get the best of him and he started to punch Jumin, over and over again whilst he cried out "I could have helped! Why you?! You're too fucking perfect to become a drug addict, why you?!" Jumin just took all of this but after a bit the pain started to emerge and he held back Zen's wrists with what little strength he had left and held them tight "P-please stop Hyun...please" Zen lifted Jumin up and pinned him to the wall, the anger was seeping off him but there was this odd tension in the air, Jumin couldn't describe it but the air could be cut with  butter knife. Zen held Jumin by his collar and brought his face close "Why are you being such an idiot?!"

Jumin was shocked by this and he felt the tension rising, what was it? He pushed Zen back a little off him and he growled a little "Don't tell me what i'm being, i know i'm being stupid, i don't need shit from you too!" Zen had enough and he slapped Jumin hard, leaving a red hand print of his cheek before pulling on Jumin's tie to keep their faces close "Listen here trust fund, no more coke, no more smoking and no more drinking, i'm staying here until this is sorted got it?!" The tension was growing thicker, Zen realised how close their faces were but he was still angry. Jumin looked straight into his eyes and spoke bluntly "You can't what about Elizabeth?" Zen got even angrier and pulled on his tie harder until their faces were mere millimetres a part "I'll take allergy medication dammit! Get your staff to b-bring me some..." Zen couldn't believe how close the two were and he finally gave in to his urges and kissed Jumin and pulled back for a moment and whispered "if you don't stop i'll keep kissing you until you do" Jumin just looked at Zen and felt his cheeks burn a deep shade of red and he sighed "Don't do that...just leave me and i'll sort it out"