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Chapter Fifthteen

Jennifer's P.O.V

I'm honestly like REALLY done with trinidad, like the fact that he still fuck with Caroline, while I'm over here pregnant with his daughter!!! Like tf🙄

But after packing up trini's things I heard him knock on the front door, welp good timing!

I walked downstairs to go and get the door.

Me: "well well well, look who it is. Your bags are upstairs."

Trini: "nah, whatchu said on the phone?"

Me: "nothing, go get yo damn bags before I throw them out the window!"

Trini: "let me find out that this baby ain't mines."

Me: "chileee anyways, even if it was, I wouldn't want my daughter finding out she got a dead beat dad!"

Trini: "whatchu mean dead beat dad? If anything I'm finna be the best father alive!"

Me: "yea aight I'm not finna argue with you right now, just go get yo things and get out."

Trini went upstairs to get his things, then came back down and left.

I went upstairs in my room, laid down just thinking.

Anyways that's beside the point, I'm still mad at him because he had the nerve to cheat on me, then after I found out, he cheated on me again!!

Like really trini??? I really wonder how Malak will react if he founds out the baby isn't his and the baby is trini's?

After all that thinking to hard I dozed off into darkness.... Well I basically fell asleep.
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I woke up to someone shaking me like I was a damn animal! I opened one eye to peek at who the hell was tryna wake me up from a good ass nap. It was Malak....

Me: "yes Malak?"

Malak: "I have a question."

Me: "what?"

Malak: "remember you used to date that boy name jahseh?"

Me: "yeah what about him?"

Malak: "don't you think that he could probably be the father also??"

I gasped in shocked. I remembered what he did to me that night, and I won't forget it either. He could be the father too. Even though it was months ago. He could be it!

Me: "your right, but I really hope Im not pregnant with his baby Malak!!"

Malak: "I hope so too."

Me: "yeah."

Malak: "so how did it go with trinidad?"

Me: "well, let's just say that he isn't so happy about us being together, and if the baby isn't his."

Malak: "jenn don't even worry bout him, worry about you and this life that's growing in you!"

Me: "your right babe, but this is so stupid of me! Getting pregnant and not knowing who's the father."

Malak: "you will know. Just don't worry about anything okay?"

Me: "fine, okay!"

Malak then walked out the room, closing the door behind him. I grabbed my phone off the night stand next to the bed. And I sent jahseh a text message. Not long after he responded.

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me: "hey jahseh...."

Jahseh: "whatz up🤥"

Me: "you know how I'm preg. right??"

Jahseh: "yeah what happened x"

Me: "it's a possibility that you could be the father😱"

Jahseh: "Really?"

Me: "Yea...but i mean if its gonna ruin your future, dont worry bout it😩"

Jahseh: "no its fine, if its my child i would be happy to take care of her too."

Me: "i expected a different reaction from you, but i guess not"

Jahseh: "lol, naw i changed😌"

Me: "thats good to hear, but i'll let you know about the DNA test thingy"

Jahseh: "ight bet"

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Well that went well.

but why? Just why me? I didn't want to even get pregnant, well now I am, and I don't even know who the baby daddy is. This is so crazy.

Yah know I should've listened to myself and had an abortion. But if i did, no one will ever forgive me! Not even my own self. Thank god Malak talked some sense into me.

I honestly would like Malak to be the father. He's sweet, caring. While on the other hand trini is cheating ass nigga. And then you got jahseh...who used to be abusive, but i guess he changed which is good.

When I got out of bed, i went to the bathroom and ran the bath water. Like I literally feel so dumb! I turned off the water because it was getting full, then I undressed myself, and slowly got into the tub full of water.

Sometimes I always wondered how will the world function without me living? I used to always suffer from depression. So why not let it bleed out? I saw a razor blade sitting in the corner of the tub.

I reached over the warm hot water to grab the blade. When I picked it up, i laid my back against the slope of the tub. I held the blade up to my wrist.

When the blade was touching my skin, I was about to add pressure....until I stopped and thought, what about the baby inside of me? What will my mother do if she found out I was dead, what will Malak do without a person like me?

I put the blade back in its place. And I sat there and cried and cried. Instead of the depression coming out as blood, it came out as tears.

When I was finished in the bathroom, I went in the room and got dressed. I walked downstairs where Malak was, he was sitting on the couch while on his phone.

I walked up to the couch and sat down....

Me: "malak."

Malak: "yea?"

Me: "I love you so much, and I don't ever want to lose you!"

Malak: "me too."

He grabbed my chin, pulling me closer to his face, and kissed me. I got up and left to go back up stairs.

I sat on the bed, trying to pull myself up slowly so I wouldn't feel pain. Why would I ever think like that? It felt like something or someone was trying to take over my body. But of course I wouldn't let that happen, I've got a little mini me growing inside me!

I pulled the covers over my body, then laid my head on the pillows that we're at the top of the bed. And I closed my eyes slowly, letting the dark seep into my eyes.

I'm claiming three people as the father of this baby, and only one of them can be it. Who will it be???
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Hope y'all liked this chapter! I'm coming out with more so don't worry😁❤and yes I know, Jennifer tried to slit her wrist!?!? But suicide isn't the answer🙅🏽‍♀️there's always someone out there that loves you💗and I'm one of them😍💋❤love you guysss♡