Control

Unnoticed

Lucy's POV

I have dreaded this day for 3 months, he will finally know that I am his mate. Kaleb, the alphas son, and my brothers best friend. Before it happened he was my biggest crush. After that day i refuse to love, mate or no I will never love again, the only people who actually loved me were ripped away from me. It took for that to happen for me to realize love is not real. Only a figment of imagination put into our heads at a young age. I know that as a werewolf I should have jumped into Kaleb's arms 3 months ago being over the moon about having an alpha as a mate or even just having a mate. I just can't, love is for the weak. My brother knows and while he doesn't agree he has kept his mouth shut about my mate being Kaleb. I know I should love Keith because he is my brother but after my parents I lost all feelings of love.

For 4 years I have done my best to avoid everyone's peircing gaze. They know what happened and at first everyone tried to talk to me but after about a year they all gave up. I wouldn't talk or even look at them. Thanks to it though most of the pack has forgotten that i exsist. All until this unlucky day, Kaleb's 16th birthday, the day I leave home. It is cruel but he would fight for me if I tried to stay. This will be hard for me because the only place I go to feel normal is my room filled with pictures of my parents, and after today I will not be able to look at their smiling faces. I know this is unfair for Kaleb because he has been waiting for years for his mate and he is stuck with the girl that only wants to be alone. 

I have not left yet for one reason...

The pull, the thing that has been making my life hell for 3 months. My wolf goes crazy with just a whiff of him. 

Surprisingly she doesn't hate me for wanting to leave. She was there when I lost my parents... and when the other thing happened. I am giving her today, she can have a day with her mate and after that , I don't know.

Honestly I haven't thought about it because this is my home. I've never lived anywhere else, and I honestly don't want to. Maybe this is stupid, maybe I should stay in the pack. I don't think anyone else would understand why I am the way I am. That means I would be considered a rouge and would be killed on site.

I don't know what to do, maybe I'll get lucky and he won't want me so everything can stay the same way they are.