"Heartbroken and Lonely"

"Shame Of My Sadness"

Why do I feel so low?

Uncomfortable sadness,

I thought I'd never know.

Unknowing why,

I'm so downtrodden.

Don't want to cry,

Even tears cannot explain.

I need something to live for,

Can't find my purpose,

No destiny at my door.

Can't stay here much longer,

This uncaring guilt,

Keeps growing much stronger.

Eating who I am for something I don't know,

Can't put my finger on it,

These emotions I have stowed.

What is this sadness,

That's taking over me?

Is it pain for my badness?

Or payment for my glee?

I just can't place it,

I want to face it,

I have to chase it,

Don't want to race it.

I just won't win,

If I'm not strong enough to waste it.

Please turn my mind off,

Don't let it turn on me anymore.

Kill that disdainful scoff,

It keeps putting at my door.

I can't hide from it anymore,

I know this in my core.

Only two paths to take now,

But both will leave me needing more.

I can't beat myself,

At my mind's twisted game.

Can't find anyone's help,

I stand alone and face my shame.