"Heartbroken and Lonely"

"Finished"

Buried under bustling,

The enormity is hustling.

The overbearing sense,

Behind the scenes.

Never knew what it meant,

Or cared enough to see.

I'm looking at it now,

Like a billowing cloud,

I can't see how,

I am not allowed.

I'm wanting to be,

Something I can't see.

I want to show,

How much I've grown.

I know my part,

I hear my heart,

Telling me to start,

Or fade away in the dark.

Emotions are running,

Down my spine like puddy.

I'm muddy and grubby,

And my inner eye is bloody.

It's looking over me,

Self-reflecting insanity.

But it's too mangled to see,

Past my idiosyncracies.

Little tics and tiny flaws,

Seem to be the rule of law.

Don't look at what you saw,

And see your angels withdraw.

This is who I am,

Even when my light grows dim,

And all our hopes are grim,

I will not be caged or lured.

Hopeless rage unsure,

Turn the page for sure,

Another age of cures,

Sets up the stage for skewers.

Skewering in me,

All my insecurity.

Let go and set me free,

I need to live already.

I see my shining day,

On the horizon far away.

But all my hoping's done,

When all I want to do is run…