Masking the Pain

You mask the pain you feel, yet inside you feel like you just can't deal. You portray this fake look of someone happy all day but at night you just wanna get away. You've been through hell and back yet your ready to pack. Your ready to run away. All because your too scared to let people know your not okay. You feel like they'll be disappointed, sad, or maybe even a little mad. You don't want that. You've always been The Good One and having that title means a ton. It means your held up to be better than the rest and always given the harder test. Disappointing someone makes your eyes want to rain and you feel a ton of pain. You don't want to feel the pain because it comes at you like a hurricane. You mask the pain you feel because you feel your just not ready to deal? Deal with all the sorrow, the flashbacks, the pain? The hurt, the regret, the stain? The stain it'll leave because it imprints your life? The stain it leaves so people can know you survive? Well you can't mask it anymore because masking it is like a door. Like a door without a key because you dont want people to see. You lock people out while you hide in your room because if they see you upset it's certain doom. They'll tell everyone they can then ask why you ran. You'll say it was stupid and you don't know why. You'll tell them let it go and they will. They'll listen to you and let it slide. It'll be back to the same routine as always and they'll never know you were just trying to hide. Stop being afraid to show everyone the pain you've felt, alone and in vain. No one is going to judge you on what you go through. It's time to stop putting on a mask. It's time to let someone now and to let it all show.