Worst Kept Secret A Camren Love Story

Chapter One

Chapter 1

Lauren's POV
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I awoke from the sound of my alarm clock ringing, I didn't feel good.
I stood from my bed and yawned while stretching my arms and legs out.
"Shut the fuck up!" I said while turning off my annoying alarm clock, I walked to my dresser and took out a pair of high waisted shorts, a Nirvana muscle-tee, and a red flannel. I dragged myself downstairs and met up with Dinah who was sitting down at the table eating her cereal.
"Where's the rest of the girls?" I asked
"Still sleeping"
I looked around noticing the very little empty spaces around the small apartment. "This is really weird, but I'm actually gonna miss this place..."
"Me too." She said while filling her mouth with Fruity Pebbles
I looked around once again and remembered all the memories I had in different places, some of them were sad, some were funny, and some were just plain out weird.
"Hey guys!" Ally said while Normani and Camila followed her from upstairs.
"Hey..." I said very quietly. "Whats up Lolo?" Ally asked
I shook my head as I felt the tension of someone's eyes looking at me, I wanted to look up and see who it was but I already had a feeling of who's it might be. "Nothing" I said dragging my finger along the smooth wooden table.
I turned around almost crashing into Normani who had a bowl of cereal in her hands. "S-Sorry..." I stuttered out, "I'm sorry!"
"Lauren, its ok."
"Sorry"
"Lauren!" Dinah shouted
"What!" I screamed out feeling very scared.
"Are you ok?"
"Huh? Umm... Yeah. I-I just need some air... Sorry." I said once again while speeding out onto the front yard patio and letting the cool breeze hit me.
I felt a tear run down my cheek and I instantly wiped it off. I sniffled a little bit but kept it under control.
I heard the door open, I shot my head up quickly noticing who it was.
"H-Hey..." I said
"Can we talk?" She said
"Yeah"
"...Is everything ok?"
"Yeah, its all good"
"It doesn't seem like it"
"Dinah! Everything is going just perfect! Ok? You don't have to worry about me, I'm just fine."
I looked at her after yelling at her, she looked kinda surprised and I felt so bad.
"Dinah, I'm sorry."
"Its ok..."
"Im sorry"
"Why do you keep saying sorry? Lauren, whats really going on?"
"Nothing...." I began to shed tears. "Lauren, you know you can tell me anything. I'll be here for you whenever you need me. Talk to me." Dinah pulled me into a tight hug.
"I don't want to talk about it"
"Its always better to talk about it."
"Not in this case..."
"What do you mean?" She looked at me into my eyes
"Nothing. Umm, I just don't feel good, my head and stomach both really hurt."
"What?" She asked very confused
"I don't feel good. I'm gonna go lay down." I stepped away from Dinah and continued to walk forward.
"Lauren, wait!" I turned around while she stood there with her arms crossed in front of her chest.
"Have you spoke to Camila lately?"
"What!? Of coarse!" I said, "why would you care?"
"I don't really care, but she does..."
"What...."
"She told me that she wanted to talk to you about something but you just keep like, ignoring her or something."
"Why would I ignore her?"
"I don't know? Don't ask me, ask yourself"
Without saying another word I walked back inside where the rest of girls were all sitting at the table.
"You okay Lauren?" Ally asked
"Yeah, just a little sick, thats all."
"Have you had anything to eat yet?" Normani asked
"No"
"Okay, i'll make you a soup right now, go upstairs to your room and lay down. We'll finish packing."
"Are you sure?" I asked
"Yes Lauren, its best for you." Ally said and I shook my head.
Before walking upstairs I looked at Camila to see if she was looking at me, but she wasn't. She was to concentrated on her stupid phone.
I felt the urge to call her name so we can go upstairs and talk about whatever she wanted to talk about. But I didn't have enough courage.
I walked upstairs and into my room feeling very dizzy. I laid on my bed, relaxing and taking everything in.
I felt my eyes get heavy, I began to slowly start closing them but a loud buzz interrupted. It was my phone. I looked at the caller ID and saw that it was my dad.
"Hello?" I answered
"Hey baby."
"Hey dad." I smiled missing him
"How you feeling? The girls called me and told me what happened"
"Good, just a little sick."
"I wish I can be there to take care of you"
"Yeah, I wish you were here too." I smiled
"So whats hurting?"
"My head, stomach, my whole body!"
"Well I'm sorry I cant be there to cure you"
"Its ok"
"I really do wish I was there, but don't worry"
"Thanks daddy"
"No problem honey, I gotta go, ok?"
"Ok"
"I love you!"
"I love you so much!"
"I love you more"
"Impossible." I said while giggling along with my dad. "Ok, i'll talk to you later."
"Bye." I said and hung up the phone.
I rolled over to my side and groaned loudly.
"Hey, you okay?" I heard a voice. I turned around to see Camila standing in the doorway.
"Y-Yeah... J-Just a little sick"
"Can I come in?"
I nodded my head.
"Is it alright if we talk?"
I nodded my head again.
"Is everything ok? Between us?"
I nodded my head.
"You sure?"
I nodded my head.
"Why aren't you saying anything?"
"I-I don't know"
"Umm... I saw that stuff, on your Tumblr"
My eyes widened in fear hoping that she understands everything that is going on. "Are you mad?"
"No! Not at all... I mean I understand, but why don't you just ignore it?"
"What do you mean ignore it? Its hard for me to ignore anything, even the little things. You, the girls, not even my own parents understand that I feel like I'm the one getting attacked over all of this, its difficult to keep a smile when really I just want to cry my eyes out."
"Lauren, you shouldn't be letting something as little as this get to you so easily!"
"Like I said before, no one understands..." I cried out
"Then why do you make everything seem like if you hate it?!"
"Because I don't!"
"What?"
"I don't hate how everybody ships us, I think its cool, seeing all these amazing videos that the fans put there time into, its just awesome. To think that someone actually cares about all of this... Just, wow!" I chuckled my words out
"Lauren..."
"See! You don't understand. No one understands!"
"Stop it! Lauren, I completely understand everything because I go threw the same exact thing as you, don't you think it hurts me as much as it hurts you? Cause it certainly does."
"Then why don't you worry about it?"
"Because I actually think it's cool. Like you said before, seeing our faces matched up with each others, thats cool to me. Seeing our names in stories fans wrote, thats cool to me. Everything they do is cool to me, I appreciate them for doing it because sometimes I do like to think it's true."
"T-Think whats true?"
"All of this!"
"Camila!"
"Lauren, you said you thought it was cool too..."
"Camila, I was just... Camz, we cant go back to the way it was before..."
"Yes we can, weren't you happy, I was happy."
"Of coarse I was happy, but..."
"Lauren, one more chance... It'll be fun"
"Camila stop!" I yelled "you don't know what you're saying.."
"I do."
"Just stop it! Ok?" I stood from the bed I was seated on and ran out the door, downstairs, to the front yard, and into my car. I quickly turned on the engine and drove away breaking the speed limit.
I drove and drove and drove until I hit a place I didn't know. I parked the car to the side, I got out and looked around. A beautiful waterfall flowing down to an amazing beautiful creek, I was amazed by the creativity that someone or at least just nature had put into this.
I sat down on a rock and thought about what I have just done, I hurt her, my best-friend, my everything.

A/N: Please Vote and Comment. I hope you guys liked the first chapter of Worst Kept Secret and hopefully will enjoy the others that will come later on in the future. Sorry that it's a little short but the rest will be longer. Thanks :)