My Life As The Oldest Sibling

As A College Student

I started college right after high school, well with a summer off before. I recieved TOPS to help pay for half of my tuition as well as took out a student loan and had my mother's help paying. My first semester went buy without any problems. Made friends with a whole lot of people. Passed all my courses and even made the dean's list. As for my second semester, the easiest class was my informatics, whitch I basicly took in high school. As the semester came to an end, tragic struck. My Uncle, my favorite one, had been going through family trouble adn was about to get devoirsed. I guess he didn't want the marrage to end, so he did the one thing I though he would never do.

He commited suicide in his own back yard, he had his to dogs in the yard with him, but he didn't hurt them. The report said he was on ever drug you could imagine besides heroin and was so intoxicaded that the drug and alcohol should of killed him. this happened 4 days after I had turned 19, Yes 4 dyas after. No one could believe it. I couldn't even get three feet away from his coffin at the funeral. He was a biker, no not the one that was wanted or had fights and whores, he was respectful and a nice person. All of his friends that were also bikers ride their bikes there and afte the service finished, every bike in the parking lot besides my uncles (My dad rode it) had its engine reved. I broke then and there, I had to lean onto my mother's vehicle to stop myself from falling onto my knees. It has only been 2 months and 4 days without him calling my parents randomly and visiting every other weekend. Requesting his Jif peanut butter and cane syrup.

He has been with us, leaving dimes verywhere and trowing cups and penut butter as people. This only added to my depression, and to my thoughts.

I am starting my second year of college in August and who knows whatelse will happen. Maybe I'll be in a car accedent on the way to or from school. We'll see.