The Struggles and Confessions of a Military Girlfriend.

Day 27

Saturday, June 2nd, 2018
Approximately 150 days to go

Today was a day that just seemed to ease my mind a little bit. I got to hang out with the kids. We went to my aunt's friends house to go swim with her and her kids. I had fun. You know how much kids can take my mind off of just about anything. For the most part anyways. The kids are learning to swim and it is both the scariest and the most amusing thingto watch. You would be laughed. I know you probably would have been trying to teach them. Isn't it crazy? How all of this even the simplest things that should have nothing to do with you, can make me think of  you? I wish so much you were here to witness the many many beautiful things I get to witness. I wonder what you are doing in that moment. I think about the time difference and how my body is beginning to be more in line with your time zone than my own. My mind is beginning to adjust in a sense to you being gone. I guess that's normal though. I mean this whole thing sucks and even though I haven't even reached a month yet I understand that i have no control over what is happening. It's weird the first week I couldn't even fathom how the hell I was going to get through this and now at almost 3 weeks I'm like ok this sucks but I can do this. Odd. But then again my emotions change so rapidly I could just be feeling that at the moment. I guess I just really want to know how you're doing all the time. I'm just happy we get to talk as much as we do because I know at some point it won't be like that. I also know plenty of people don't get this chance. This somewhat normality of getting to talk to you throughout the day and night. So I suppose in a sense I'm lucky. For now anyways. Because you and I both know that soon. This is going to flip. I'm scared for when we start to slow down with communication or who knows maybe I won't even get the slow decrease. Maybe I'll just get the complete cut off out of the blue. I really hope not because like that would totally suck and I'd rather get the opportunity to prepare rather than just be screwed over and deal with it with no choice. Not that i really have any choices at the moment anyways. I guess I just miss you and I know its going to get worse when we have no communication no contact no nothing.

Boo boo, I hope you are doing well. I hope you're seeing new things and enjoying new things. I hope you grow your friendships and make them stronger. I hope you know how much I love and miss you. I cant wait for you to come home. XOXO.

Days gone: 18