Wednesday, June 6th, 2018
Approximately 146 days to go
Well, today was a very shitty day. The doctor called I had inconclusive results which I am not really sure how to feel about. Another appointment I had that I needed got canceled. I had a dentist appointment. To be honest, I'm trying to cram as much studying in for tomorrow as I can. I'm trying so hard to remember all the formulas needed and the way to use them and how they have to be done but I literally fear its impossible. no actually it really is impossible. I'm losing my damn mind. My focus is everywhere but this damn math worksheet. I am trying so hard and yet I still can't keep my mind in the zone of math. Like honestly.
Today you told me to take some good deep breaths and to calm down. You told me you believed in me and that you knew I could do it. If it wasn't for you I'm sure I would lose my mind. I miss you so much. I'm sure Japan is great and all I mean you've taken some beautiful photos since you've been there. If I'm being honest I'm a bit jealous. I still can't believe we haven't even hit a month. it feels like you've been gone for so long. I'm so curious as to how it's going to feel when I hit the halfway mark or the almost the end mark. the there is only a week left of course ill never actually know how much time I have left because you won't tell me. Don't get me wrong I don't really want to know because even though I hate the idea of surprises you love it. I promise everything will be better.
Days gone: 22
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