Sleepless Nights(Namjoonxreader / drabble)

Sleepless Nights

hello! this is my first namjoon drabble and also my first bts fanfiction hope you enjoy :3
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You stare blankly at the ceiling of your bedroom while lying back on your bed, you blinked twice to brake off your stare and glanced at your clock on the side of your bed.

1:30 am.

you whispered a tiny 'fuck' and sighed as you rub your face harshly with your hands as if it'll magically make you sleep. You'll probably look like trash tomorrow.

You've been working for Bighit for 3 years now as a staff on preparations for BTS's stage and filmings, so you were always working on the sidelines and it took a year for Namjoon to notice you with his clumsiness by accidentally pouring his coffee on you.

One thing led to another, Namjoon started talking to you in between breaks from their filmings and stage performances,struggling to make random conversations to fit the little time he has on his breaks, you thought it was cute of him

Always smiling when talking to you , smiling enough to see his cute dimples, this was going on for weeks and when he finally heard you say yes when he asked you to be his girlfriend, you had never heard him screamed so loud.

As cliche as it sounds, it was probably fate...is what Namjoon always say.. but you think that fate must have confused you with somebody else and choosed you.

And now you guys are together for months...6 months to be exact and ever since then you have this nights where you just...overthink things...things about how you and Namjoon have been together for this long.

you always ask namjoon if he regrets being with you because having a girlfriend means it would affect his reputation on being an idol if ever fans caught you and namjoon together, you were scared he might lose his fans because of you.

"No, I don't. I'll never regret being with you. I want this..I want US..and if my fans doesn't approve of me dating,then they're not real fans"

he hugged you so tight that day...god you miss him so much right now.

They are so busy in preparing for their next stage that Namjoon doesn't have time for you from this past weeks. This is the relationship you agreed on so you didn't really mind it at all, after all, ARMY's comes first.

you turned to your side facing away your bedroom door and hugged your pillow so hard as you closed your eyes tightly trying to brush this thoughts away and making yourself go to sleep.

after a few seconds, you hear the front door of your apartment unlocking.

'is that namjoon?'

the sound of shuffling of clothes and series of footsteps filled your apartment.

'why is namjoon here, and not at their dorm? they still have practice until next week!' you think to yourself.

Then the door to your bedroom opened slowly, with a loud creak and you heard namjoon with series of whispered curses trying hard not to wake you up with his clumsiness.

You giggled, loud enough for namjoon to hear. He sighed, probably a little mad because you were still awake.

"hey, why are you still awake?" Namjoon said while stripping off from his clothes and tossed them on the side of your room. leaving him only with his boxers.

"because of you", you answered as you turned around to face him, you got caught off guard because of namjoon's almost naked figure. You stared at him for a while taking in his form, as your cheeks started to heat up.

Namjoon raised his eyebrow at you,
"Like what you see Y/N?" he asked teasingly while motioning his hands up and down to his body.

You scoffed at him and turned your back at him, but still feeling flustered.

Namjoon smiled as he climbed to your bed and slid under your blanket. He hugged you tightly and burried his head on your neck and inhaled loudly, taking in your scent.
" God I missed this so much" Namjoon mumbled still burried on your neck.

"Me too" you replied.

"I'm sorry I didn't have time for you, even though I always see you at work" He said, feeling his warm breath on you neck.

you turned around to face him and cupped his face with your hands
"It's fine, I'm fine with it. I agreed to this relationship and I know that stuff like this would happen" you answered.

Namjoon smiled and kissed the tip of your nose and trailed down and kissed your lips.

"I don't deserve you Y/N,you're too good for me" he said sighly.

"so you said you were awake because of me. why?" he suddenly asked.

"I just-" your voice trailed as you burried your face in namjoons chest as you hugged him tightly "I was just thinking, if you...chose the right decision by dating me".

"Ahh Y/N how many times do I tell you, I want this ok?" he answered as he lifted up your face with his hands and is playfully squishing them.

He stopped and stared at you, eyes that makes you feel secured and loved

you could stare at his eyes forever. He trailed his other hand on the back of your neck and pulled you into a kiss. The kiss was heated but sloppy, leaving you sighing into his mouth. Namjoon broke apart the kiss and looked at you.

"I'll make it up to you tomorrow, they gave us a day off and I want to spend it with you" he whispered.

"..So...we can continue this tomorrow.." he teasingly said with a smirk forming in his mouth.
you giggled as you lightly smacked his chest.
"silly" you whispered as you hugged him and gave him a small peck on the corners of his mouth.
"I love you namjoon."

"and I love you more Y/N."

you both smiled at each other, until both of you felt sleep taking over.