Hanzo x reader

Holding Back

a/n: something a bit more angsty this time~

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"Why do you hold back so much, brother?" Genji inquired, frustration evident in his voice. Hanzo hunched at his question, his back facing his brother. He was a Shimada and those of the clan were to keep themselves in check, yet the archer had failed at that simple task.

Being his younger brother, Genji could detect whenever his older brother was distressed, and now was one of those times. Despite Hanzo's constant cold shoulder towards him, he just couldn't ignore that which troubled him. Sometimes he was able to alleviate his worries, other times were unsuccessful as Hanzo still kept that thick wall between the both of them.

Although that wall was present, the ninja was still able to pick up on what Hanzo was struggling with. The main reason?

You, the person that had captured his fragmented heart.

His body showed it all, but only a trained eye such as Genji's could pick up on such so subtle details. Whenever Hanzo caught you on his line of sight, his shoulders would loosen and a breath of air would release from within him; whenever he would talk with you may it be about training or something as trivial as today's dinner, Hanzo's attention always laid on you and nothing else. So on and so forth, these were some of the things that Genji was able to pick up about his brother.

Simply put, you placed Hanzo's heart at ease.

Yet Genji could not understand why his brother held back so much. His past was long gone – yes, his brother had brought him anguish many years ago but he had made it clear that he had forgiven him for his sin – and he believed that Hanzo had redeemed himself these past few years. But it seemed that wasn't the case yet.

Hanzo was so stubborn and so hard on himself that a deep part inside of Genji aggravated him. Was his brother afraid of something?

"I know that you may still not accept the doings of your past, but this is different. Why-"

"Because I do not deserve them, Genji," the archer snapped back as he went to fully face his younger brother. "That is why."

Frustration and bitterness could be felt from his words as his head hung low, fists clenched by his sides. His eyes were tightly shut as Hanzo did not know how to handle the battle inside his heart and head. He wouldn't do anything about the matter is what he had come to terms with within himself, but his heart said otherwise.

If he didn't deserve Genji from the beginning, then he didn't deserve anybody else. Who would want to be with a man with such a past as his?