DIARY ENTRY -- 13
07/08/2017
What are feelings anymore? The numbness has replaced every other feeling I felt ever in my life. When I meet Jin by the hallway, he forces a smile at me. When I see Yoongi in the music class, he nods and proceeds to ignore me for the rest of the class. When I meet Jimin accidentally in the boy's locker room, he just turns around without acknowledging me. When I see Taehyung down in the school grounds, he just stares and then turns away. When I meet Jungkook in the washroom, he just glares and bumps into me harshly, probably because of the heartbreak I made his brother go through. And when I see his brother, Hoseok, I become breathless. The boy smiles at me with the brightest smile he can muster. I would be lying if I said that that smile wasn't what kept me going. That smile made me smile even at the worst of times. Anxiety and panic attacks are a norm in my life now. There is no one for me, No one ever was.
Hoseok also felt numb. He couldn't fathom what the other boy was feeling when he was writing this. Hoseok always smiled at him because he wanted to mock Namjoon. Show him that Hoseok didn't need him, that he had moved on. But in reality, Hoseok still reminisced their time together. He still loved the younger. He still Wanted the younger. And he just wished for a second chance to show the boy that.
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The last you heard of me
Fanfiction"Death is inevitable. The way you die matters." Unfortunately, Namjoon died in the most painful way possible, by suicide. k.nj × j.hs Platonic k.nj × bts
