Finding Happiness

         I felt a smile fall from my lips as I walked towards the office. I could feel my excitement over my new fame suddenly leaving me. I no longer felt the rush I used to when I sang a song, when I waved to screaming fans, not even when I won awards. Its strange how the minute you get what you have desired for so long is the moment you seem to no longer want it.

       I kept my head down as I passed my fans, trying to ignore their cries for attention. You may think I am a bitch for not stopping and talking but you wouldn't understand what I am feeling at the moment. To know that you can no longer just be yourself, that everything you do will be judged, that you are always being watched.

     Once I made it inside I quickly headed into the elevator and then proceeded to find my managers office. I opened the door and felt a gasp leave my lips. In front of me stood the cute little boy band by the name of One Direction. "Ahh Alessandra, so nice of you to join us. If you didn't know these young lads are from One Direction. Right here is Louis, Harry, Niall, Liam, and last but not least Zayn. I think you two will get along the most." Kyle my manager said as he pointed to each of them, his last comment came with his introduction of Zayn. "And boys this is Alessandra, my star." I smiled at them as I sat down. My black skinny jeans protested at the movement but I ignored it as I lifted my feet to cross them on top of the table. "Hello boys its a pleasure to meet you and all but what brings you here?" I asked as I slowly brought my attention to Kyle. He grunted as he tried to push my feet off his desk but gave up as he leaned against it. "Well darling you will be going on tour with them!" I arched my eyebrow at him."That is if you agree to go." He quickly added making me laugh. " I have nothing better to do. When do we leave?" I asked as I put my feet down and sitting straight up in my chair as I read over the contract agreement. "That's the catch, you would be leaving tonight. They need to get on the road." I nodded, my hair falling over my shoulder as I reached for a pen." Sleeping arrangements?" My eyes flicked to meet his as he started tapping the desk."If you would like your own hotel room we can arrange that but otherwise the boys usually go two  in each room so we figured you could room with whoever you would like or whoever is in a room by themself. Now you would share a bus but you have your own bunk and the boys have assured me that you will get the bathroom whenever you want so showers can be your get away still." I felt a smile fall on my lips signing the contract passing it to Kyle. "Wait thats all youre going to ask about before you just agree?" Louis asked in confusion. "Boys you'll soon realize that Aless here doesn't care about much, she is more relaxed, a free spirit so to say." They all nodded as I stood up. "Well then by for now, I seem to need to get home and pack." I mumbled walking out quickly Ben, my head bodyguard, following me closely. "Darling you need to smile more, you know my wife always warns you that one day that frown will be permanent on your pretty face."Ben said as he smiled down at me.

                 Ben and his wife have known me for 4 years now. Ben was my bodyguard before I was really famous. But now that I am he just became my head bodyguard and the boss of the rest of my bodyguards. His wife was like a mum to me. She always hated me frowning. Her threats followed me everywhere, but she loved ,my dark attitude anyway.

                  When I got home i couldnt help but sigh. I should be happy about touring with the boys but in reality all I wanted to do was sleep,. and ignore the world.

                   It was finally eight and the bus was ready to leave. I had all my blankets and pillows on my bunk, my little pictures. The boys boarded the bus, all saying their hellos to me. I was in my shorts and a tank top already relaxed. Zayn sat down next to me on the couch as everyone walked around getting settled. Zayn had a calming air around him, making me relax more.

                    " So guys here we go all over again." Harry mumbled flopping on the floor, he smiled up at me as i started running my fingers through his hair. "Your hair is fluffy. I like it"I mumbled causing them all to laugh. Zayn put his arm around me smiling "You seem to fit in great!" I smiled blushing.

    Maybe this wouldnt be so bad after all.