Before him, I was a hopelessly lost inside of my own mind. Trying to make it through depression was one of the hardest battles i ever had to face. My thoughts took over my life. I began cutting when i was cheated on by the guy i thought i loved. Since then, i was never same; thats what sparked everything. I have never felt so alone and worthless. I felt like i wouldnt be good enough for anyone. I began doing things that made me untrustworthy. I cheated on him with 7 different guys, just to make him feel what he made me go through. I never was in love. I didnt know what it was like. The guys i dated were no good. Which made me feel even more worse. I was called many things by them... a whore, bitch, fatass, cunt, ugly, etc. My view of myself changed drastically. I hated myself. My used to be smile, nose, face, legs, arms, boobs, butt, stomach, feet, hands.. everything. I changed the most i could, but nothing helped me. To lose weight, i starved myself. When i did eat, i went right to the toilet to throw it up. I want to feel pretty. I looked at other girls who could get any guy they wanted because they had that supermodel body and looked so pretty. I never knew what that was like or how that felt. It took three years for someone to notice how bad my depression actually was. Scars covered my arms, legs and stomach. My body will never be the same and neither would my heart... so i thought.
One day... I started talking to a new guy... at that moment, i fell for him. We talked for awhile and i started to love him, but i couldnt tell him that. Several months later, he became my everything, my life, my world, my universe. I am truly in love with him. All i do, is think about him. He helped me... Depression pills dont help fully, but he was the boost i needed to make me happy. I didnt know what it was like to really smile again. He is my missing puzzle piece, with him i am complete. My mother told me that the guys i date are just stepping stones to Mr. Right... Well, i crossed the stones and i found him. He is the one for me. Im not the best girlfriend, i make mistakes, but he overlooks them, because he loves me. I have never had that. He thinks of me, cares for me, loves me, and so much more. My insecurites are slowing going away, thanks to him. When i talk to him, i forget everything. I forget all problems. He makes my heart pound fast, like a drug. Hes my addiction, but i cant overdose. i cant get enough of him, everything he does makes everything so much better. He makes me truly happy. He fixed my broken heart. Ive never felt this way about anyone before... hes my dream come true. i thought i wasnt good enough for anyone, but he proved me wrong. He amazes me. When i think i lost him, he comes back with open arms. I want to spend the rest of my life with him. Every call, every text, i fall more and more for him. I dont believe you fall in love only once, because i fall in love with him over and over again. Hunter is the one guy that loves me for me and doesnt judge me in anyway. He heard me say the weirdest things, heard the weirdest noises, and saw me at my worst, and he still loves me. Our conversations are everything from lovey dovey to joking around and calling each other the weirdest names. Depression was hard to do, but i didnt have to do it alone. Hunter saved me. I was at the point where i couldnt take it anymore and he held his hand out and pulled me out of the dark hole. He was the light i needed to guide me through the darkness. He made me happy. He showed me what being in love is all about. Yeah, i dont get to see him much, but every second i am with him, is the best second of my life. I plan to spend the rest of my life, to have my children, to have a house with him. When im sad, he is right there, when im happy, he is right there, when im mad, hes right there, through everything. Thick and thin. He is my babe, bestie, love of my life, sweetie, and my sweetheart. There has never been a single moment where i thought about leaving him. He gives me never ending buttflies and happy tears. Im glad he wanted me too... Ill make every second count cause i miss him when hes not around. We had our ups and downs, but we always worked them out. Ive never had that. I was at the right place and right time. I dont know where i would be with out him. whatever it takes Im not going to break the promise i made. He is my forever and im not going to leave him. I dont only love him for saving me, but i love him for who he is. For being everything i ever wanted. I love you Hunter.
