The pain is incredible.
Not just physical
But emotional too
He hit me, he really hit me
I cant say I didn't see it coming
Because I did
The fighting
The drinking
The staying late at the office everyday
I knew what was going on, but I couldn't be bothered with it
Because i'm selfish
self absorbed
I don't give a fuck about anything but me
But that's not entirely true
I love my mother, she may not love me, but I love her
I will aways defend her
But my father
He doesn't love her, he doesn't love me
or my sisters
He loves himself, and that's it
That's why he didn't give a second thought to hitting me
Slapping me across the face
He doesn't even know how much it hurt
Yeah it stung,
but on the inside
My heart shattered to pieces, my own father
Someone who is suppose to love me no matter what, no matter how many times I screw up
Hurting me
The pain I'm feeling is unbearable
But I will not cut
I will not attempt to end my life
Because I know
that somewhere, somebody loves me
Somebody cares if I stay on this earth
And I will stay strong, to stay alive.
