Why is saying goodbye so hard to do?
I can't imagine the pain of never seeing you.
It breaks my heart knowing I'm the last one you think of at the end of the day.
It hurts so much in every single way.
Your always on my mind, I never stop thinking of you.
It's obsessive if you actually really knew.
When I'm not looking into your cold blue eyes,
I'm lost, lonely and sad, I just cry and cry.
My heart breaks when you don't want me around you.
Ripping my heart in two; can't you understand the hurt you put me through?
My eyes become blinded, drowning in my tears.
My stomach in knots from what I feel and fear.
My knees shake, disappointed with anxiety..
You said you needed me... but you just lied to me.
I'm physically hurting as your words break me down.
A painful confusion takes over, and I fall to the ground.
I pray out loud for this feeling to go away..
I beg God, on my knees for you to pls pls stay!!
The heartache is torture, it's becoming too much to bare...
And right now, you don't even fucking care.
I've never felt this love before in my life.
You asked me to be your forever, to be ur damn wife.
Alone without you, hurts like a cut from a sharp knife.
It's just me and the sound of my broken hearts rapid pace.
I can't control my tears as they soak my sad face.
I don't know how to control this emotion,
My mind is racing, filling with so much commotion.
I wanna put a gun to my head to quiet my mind...
I can't help but ask God why am I abandoned all the time?
Am I really that hard to love?
Am I never good enough?
I will have to pull the trigger if you leave.
Cuz my life is nothing with you B.B.
I'm losing my lover, best friend, soulmate and twin flame,
Death will be sweeter then feeling this sorrow and pain.
"The sadness will never end," Van Gough wrote,
I know his pain now so time to write my farewell note.
Don't you dare cry when you hear of my demise.
It didn't have to end this way but you ignored all my cries.
I know you'll go on and you'll be just fine.
And I'll be waiting for you in our next lifetime.
