"Heartbroken and Lonely"

"The Nicest Guy"

Why am I punished?

What have I done?

I don't need your approval,

To spin this web that I've spun.

Please don't hate me,

Your ire sedates me.

Can't seem to break this,

Immovable mist.

If only you were there,

When I thought up my despair.

If only I could weep,

For this fate that kills me deep.

I won't find another,

So why do you tease?

As if the thought of her,

Didn't incite my disease?

I need my love,

To be reciprocated.

Won't get help from above,

Swelling inside is hated.

How much longer,

Will you close my eyes?

Am I getting stronger?

Can't escape my demise.

It's eating me,

Inside.

Can't find a place,

To hide.

Can't win this race,

I lied.

And so now I face,

My demise.

I'm cooling down,

This satirical frown.

This hopeless emotion,

Feels like a choking crown.

I won't take this any longer,

My own will can't make me stronger.

Hopelessness behind the beat,

My heart's out upon the street.

A wino of my lost caring,

Leaving behind my oldest daring.

I can't take my coldest thought,

But it all just matters naught.

My mind's,

Confused.

Can't take,

This ruse.

Emptiness,

Abused.

Hold me close,

Amused.

That's all they can feel,

To them, I am not real.

The nice guy behind the scenes,

Nobody knows,

What it means...

Loneliness...

So cold and hopeless...

I fold my whole deck...

Don't care what is left...