R U T H L E S S

•twenty five - sick•

  Looking up from underneath
Fractured moonlight on the sea
Reflections still look the same to me
As before I went under 

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Skye

 

I looked away from my book when I heard the door to my room click open. I saw Justin come in.

"I thought we aren't supposed to open doors without permission anymore" I said and he rolled his eyes,

"I'm here to talk to you about this one last time Skye" He said before sitting down next to me on the couch.

His honey orbs staring at me intently, making me feel warm under their gaze. I could spend all day counting the specks in his eyes.

"About?" I asked and he huffed

"Let's go back Skye..." He started and I shut my book and kept it aside.

"I want to go back to how we were before the trip" He said and looked at me again.

"It was the most perfect and stable thing I've ever had" He said softly.

"But would it feel the same now? Now that I've told you I love you more than just a fuck buddy or a friend, tell me will it still be the same?" I asked and he didn't respond to that.

"I'm sorry Justin, but we can't go back. I'll be looking at you with so much more depth in my feelings and you won't be able to reciprocate that and I don't think its fair for either of us" I added.

"This is why I hate getting serious" He mumbled.

"You know what my dad used to say when he'd talk about my mom?" I said after a long pause between us. I smiled at the memory.

"He would tell me that love is of three types. Unrequited, Star-crossed and Destined; the kind of love that finds it way through everything and no matter what, it makes the two people end up together. The last one is the rarest of all. I never believed in that but now that I know what love is, I do. And I'm not surprised that I'm unfortunate to have the worst type of love; Unrequited" I said and he looked away from me.

"Why do you even love me? There are people who can treat you better" He mumbled and I chuckled.

"That's one question that no person in love can answer, there is really never an answer for the 'why?'" I said and he looked down at his fingers.

"What do you love in me then?" He asked.

"Everything"

"Everything?" He asked and I nodded.

"So you love me even when I'm a bitch to you?" He said and I smiled and nodded. But he shook his head in annoyance.

"Skye, this is stupid, love is fucking stupid and the fact that you love me is even more stupid, make your genius brain work, you're too smart to love someone like me" He said making me laugh softly.

"I'm serious Skye! I hate us being like this okay all distant and constantly fighting, I swore to myself that this is the last time I'm going to ask you this..." He trailed off.

"Let's go back" He said I parted my lips to answer but he quickly sealed them with his thumb.

"Just a yes or a no" He said.

"Justin-

"Yes or no Skye!" He warned and I sighed.

"No" I mumbled and saw how shoulders slump.