Three days

"One last goodbye"

Amelie, I want to tell you that I'm sorry for this... I don't want to break your heart, probably I already did but I don't want that for you. I love you, and I'm sorry that I had to find that out on my last breaths, all these years of friendship meant a lot to me. I'm sorry that my way of showing love to you was telling you "you're annoying" every time you tried to make my days better.
Let me tell you how lovely you were and are. I remember the first day at my new school where this girl came to me and hit me with a book. She demanded to me to give her the pen I borrowed back. I found that annoying and intense at the very first start but that wasn't the last time I borrowed your pens and kept them because l forgot to gave them back. It happened again and again. What a weird start for a friendship. I still have two pens that you borrowed to me. I'm writing this with one. Don't get mad at me once again, please. Also, how am I gonna forget the girl that came to my house everyday after school? I quit high school because I wanted to get apart from everyone. But this annoying girl of the pens never let me get away. Somehow I never told you to go. Well, maybe a couple of times. But you knew I liked your presence around me. It made me happier. And after all you stayed by my side. I will forever thank you this, Ames, from the bottom of my heart.
And I maybe will sound childish on this, but I wish we could've had more story. I'm sorry for not letting it happen. I don't want you to cry for me, ok? Maybe it's too much asking but please, smile, show the world that pretty smile that can make happy anyone who sees it. Keep looking forward to your dreams. Fulfill them, Ames, I know you can. Graduate from college, go to work, meet someone, marry that someone, have a family, do all that you have been dreaming of. Don't stay there waiting for your destiny to come like I did. Don't make the same mistakes as me. Keep going. If they tell you that you can't, don't listen and let me tell you that you can. Don't be fooled by them, you are super capable of anything. If you got to be my best friend, believe me, you can do anything else. You got it. As always.
Thank you for being there for me. You are the type of people that leaves a mark, a good and perfect mark. I will never regret spending my evenings with you. I hope you don't regret it too. And do me a favour and keep being that annoying girl, please, don't loose you scent, being that annoying girl that wants her pens back is what makes you Amelie. Don't take it wrong, it's a compliment. If you want to burn this letter, it's okay, if you wanna keep it, then it's okay too. I will support your decision and the rest of decisions you'll make. And another thing, don't hold on to me, we know I'm gone, but it's not the end, not for you. You have a great life behind you. I'm starting to get jealous about the lucky man that's going to marry you, but if he's a good boy and loves you, I'll be okay with it. As long as you're happy and super fine, I'll be happy and fine too. And when you have kids, I hope they look like me. Just kidding. I hope that they have a good life and that their parents will be there to guide them. Don't let your kids get apart from you, never. You'll be a good mom though. Right? Right.
I never told this but I will right now. Your eyes and smile drowned me into an entire world that was simply wonderful and that I couldn't see enough. There was much to see and I didn't had the time to run through all that world, you have to walk through it, calm, taking the time to watch every little detail. Appreciate it. And don't forget this: I'll always love you. Forever and always.

Yours,
Luca.