"Heartbroken and Lonely"

"Days Of Sorrow"

I need a break,

From this emotional state.

Don't want to hate,

But my fear won't vacate.

Hold me please,

Trapped in this disease.

All I want is to please,

But I'm stuck on my knees.

Praying for forgiveness,

An end to all of this.

This hating turmoil of mist.

This love that hits like a fist.

Faith love and hope,

Are the counterparts to our undoing.

But I am left to grope,

For a way to stop this losing.

I can't get ahead,

If I know where I am lead.

I must break the leash,

Of this unforgiving peace.

I must find myself,

In the darkness inside.

And take my own hand,

Be on my own side.

I care for others,

So much that I,

Forgot who I am.

Makes me wonder why.

Why am I here?

Why do I fear?

Why does my body,

Refuse to shed a tear?

Why is my life,

Devoid of all cheer?

How can I hold on,

When nobody wants to come near?

And why does what I lost,

Continue to burn and sear?

I can hope for something,

But I give up all control.

I can have faith you'll be there,

But faith always takes a toll.

My love is unending,

But I've come around to find,

Where my love has been sending,

Is going to leave me blind.

I must step out of the past,

To lead myself into tomorrow. 

But today is just a day,

Another league of sorrow.

I can see the light,

At the end of my tunnel.

Don't know if I have the might,

To fight this black hole's funnel.

I'm so empty it hurts,

I try to find my way,

But she left me for dead.

And now I have to pay...

It's just another...

Sorry day.