Never Letting Go (ON HOLD, SORRY! X)

Chapter 16

"So how did it go?" I ask Ruby as we got ready for school tomorrow.

"Ok I guess, I kept dropping hints all afternoon and he didn't get one!"

. . . Or maybe he's just being polite.

"I dunno Ruby" I sighed.

"Me either . . . maybe I should just stick to loving Cody" she giggles. Oh. Hell. No. I have one word for you Ruby, Mine.

Lately I have been considering about going out with Cody. These mini debates have been going on in my head and I think I am ready I mean I want to be able to say yes and go out with him but the media and his fans are the real thing stopping me, it just won't be the same. Ever.

"Lights out girls" Nat says standing at our doorway.

"Night Nat" I say hugging her whilst Ruby is checking Cody's tweets.

"Night mum" Ruby says not keeping her eye of her laptop. I giggle as Nat turns off the light and Ruby still sits their, at her desk unaffected by it.

*

"Kate! Kate! What does it feel like to be Cody's girl?"

"How are you handling the hate?"

"Kate! Over here please! Kate!"

I see the lights flash as Ruby death stares me down.

"I thought we were family?! We tell each other everything don't we! . . . I hate you!" She screams over and over again. "I hate you!"

"Fame's not easy is it?" Cody laughs mixed with more camera flashes.

*

I jolt up sweating and heart pounding. I look around the room to see I am not at the kids choice awards and I flop back down on my bed. I roll over and look at the time; 6:30am. I groan and rub my eyes. I defiantly won't be going back to sleep after that nightmare. I look over to Ruby who was still asleep, waiting for her 7am alarm to go off. I let her sleep, grabbing my uniform and headed for the bathroom.

A million thoughts raced the my head at once.

'What will happen when Ruby finds out about me and Cody . . . ?'

'Will we ever get back together again officially?'

'How will the Kids choice awards go?"

I shook them away and flattened my skirt to get rid of the creases. I close my eyes and splash water on my face, just as I do my nightmare comes back again. I quickly reach for a towel and dry my face. I really need a coffee, I look a mess.

I wonder over to the kitchen to see Nat awake.

"Good morning sweetie, how'd you sleep?"

"Alright" I lie, I really don't feel like going into detail about it, I just want to forget it all together.

"Thats good, would you like a coffee? I'm making myself one now but Ruby doesn't drink it"

"Yes please" I say taking a seat at the counter.

In between sips of coffee I grab my lunch and pack it into my back. Once I am completely ready I sit back at the counter finishing my coffee. It only took me half an hour to get ready this morning surprisingly.

"Oh morning guys!" Ruby says as she strolls through the kitchen.

"Morning" We both echo. While I wait for Ruby to get ready for school I sat at the front door ready to go texting Sarah, Danielle, Mariah...I was meaning to all week as I promised them all I will text them all everyday and felt extremely guilty. When I see Nat ready for work I quickly forward them all the same message;