"Heartbroken and Lonely"

"Shaking My Unshakeable"

A very personal poem about my father. He left before I knew him, then came back, then left again... It has brought much pain and sadness to my life, but it has also made me who I am today...

I was born alone,

Wailing upon the earth.

Such frail flesh and bone,

Never knows it's worth.

I grew up without you,

And never really cared.

Mom told me about you,

And the joy that you two shared.

But I was left behind,

In the shadows of your past.

Out of sight and out of mind,

Hapiness to last.

Then I found the truth,

Who you really were.

It threw me for a loop,

Made me so unsure.

If I was made by you,

What does that make me?

Someone tell the kid the truth,

Can't comprehend what he sees.

Confusion,

So wrong.

Illusions?

So long.

I'm waking up in bed,

Father is so near.

Such love within my head,

He kills all of my fears.

So happy deep inside,

I have a daddy now.

Not knowing the world lied,

And never seeing how.

When he left me again,

My world was shattered.

So belligirent then,

Madder than the hatter.

What did I do?

Why did you go?

I wish I knew,

So sad and cold.

The pain of being left,

Eats at me every day.

Like a part of me is bereft,

Not knowing my own ways.

A child's love for his father,

Is almost unbreakable.

But when he's left behind as fodder,

Resentment so unshakeable...