For All Time

Chapter 10-The Dream

I was wide awake but she didn't know it. I just layed on the couch with my hair over my face. my eyes on slightly closed so she'd think i was asleep. She had removed a piece of board from the hard wooden floor of the cabin i had watched as she placed what looked like photo albums and notebooks inside if it. She stopped short at her journal the same journal that I wrote in all the time. She opened it and began writing. My mother didn't look like herself at all. She had her hair in a messy knot. Her eyes were read and lashes were soaked from all the crying that she sis on a daily basis. She had on a baggy T-shirt and jeans. She normally didn't look like that but then was just one of her depressing moments.

When she finished writting she walked over to me. She placed the journal next to me and rubbed my hair. she kissed me on my forehead."You will have questions someday, this will answer them" she said. I could tell by the tone of her voice that she didn't want to have to do that way. It was like she knew she was gonna  die."And Remember that that board over there, It's the with the one AH carved in it. That answer everything you need to know and it will tell you ever thing there is to know about me."She Held me tight in her arms. rocking me from side to side."You have an amazing life ahead of you, Baby Girl. And I'm gonna be with you every step of the way. I may not be with you physically, but i will spiritually."I didn't know what she mean't by that but i do now.

Suddenly there was a knock at the door. she layed me down softly on the pill and pulled the cover over me. I heard her walk over to the door and open it."It's about time." she said.

"I'm sorry but the traffic is horrible out there, there was some kind car wreck out there."That voice was all to familiar. I would know from a mile away.

"Well Your here now."She said."She's sleeping if she ever wakes up just give her some milk she go right back to sleep."

"Wait, Leah."Susanne said, obviously stopping her.

"What?"

"You coming back right?"

there was a long moment of silence.Then she sighed."If I don't Susanne, I want you to take care of my baby girl for me. Okay."

Susanne eyes filled with worry in an instant."But I don't know how to take care of a child."

"Believe me, your motherly instincts will kick in in an instant." She said the she hugged her tightly."Just stay in this here cabin until I get back if i don't then You take her back to your place and raise her the way I would want her to be raised."

Susanne just nodded her head as the tears started rolling down her cheeks."I love you Leah."

"I love you too"She said then turned around and walked out the house into the thundering rain.