Too Much

Intro

Hey, My name is Kalani...

I live in a huge house all by myself...

*sigh* Im so stupid.

Why couldnt it have been me..me instead of my mom and dad..me istead of my baby brother...why couldnt it have been me...

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It was Saturday.

I was laying on my bed listening to some music.

Dead and Gone by T.I. came on.

It always gets me in my feels.

I started to cry. I hate this life. I have no one.

My parents are dead. My brother is dead. My aunts/uncles dont care about me and my best friend/only friend is gone for 2 months on vacation.

This is bullshit! Why is this my life!?!

I walked into my bathroom. I looked at it. Shining in the light.

'One more time. Thats it. Then im done!'

Yeah, okay.

I said that to myself 3 weeks ago. Did I stop? Ha, no.

I grabbed it and pushed it into to soft, scared skin.

"When will the pain stop?"I asked myslef.

I washed of the blade and put it back in the cabinet. I washed my arm with cold water to stop the bleeding then taped it up.

I walked back into my room and saw a messege on my phone.

Abbi
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Hey girl. Finally got to the hotel. SO I HAVE WIFI!!! How are things goin? I miss you so much bb. Call me yeah?

It was a text from my bestfriend.

I did as she said and called her. She answered the FaceTime.

"Hey B B!!!" She said.

"Heey" i replied.

"Hey, whats wrong. Your face is flushed?" She asked. Worry in her voice.

"Oh nothing, just the flu?" I said more in a question.

"The flu in summer?" She didnt believe me.

"Yup" i said popping the p

"Kalani..." she asked

"Yeah?"

"A-are you cutting again?"

This question caught me off guard.

Should i lie? Should I tell the truth?

"N-no..." I lied.

"Kalani! Stop! Seriously! Im not home! What if you kill yourself! Your in that house alone. Please stop!!" She begged.

I didnt reply.

"Abbi, c'mon honey, its dinner time" her mom said.

"Alright hold on!" She said back. "Kalani please...please, please, please stop" i couldnt say anything so i just nodded my head. We ended the call and i just layed in my bed. Ready to cry my self to sleep...again.

-- AUTHOR NOTE (PLEASE READ)

Hey guys and gals. So i just wanted to warn you that this book will have suicidal thoughts, depression acts and such in it.

Also I am not sure how often I will be updating...BUT feel free to give me ideas to either write a different book or to put into this story. AND Please tell me what you think of this story. Honest opinions only. Dont hold back because its your opinion.

Suicide is not a thing to laugh about, neither is depression. Its not a joke. It is terrible to have and to feel so many different feelings constantly. If you know someone who is suffering dont ignore them. Bring them into your life and keep them there.

I dont really know where im going with this book, but we'll find out together. Love ya'll so much! ❤

Thanks for choosing to read this book!   X D