HIDDEN FEELINGS

chapter 7 (betrayal)

Emily POV

Sweat trickled down my forehead with every movement as my body moved to the rhythm of the loud music booming from speakers my head felt heavy as alcohol began take effect on me. I felt the room spinning round me taking one more shot of tequila I began struggling to keep by balance stumbling around all over the place
I make my way to dance floor and begin line dancing to Ho down by by Miley Cyrus with random guy I met at the club we dance for while until I begin to feel drowsy and light headed due to amounts of tequila I have been galloping down my throat for past hour supporting my now heavy head with one of my hands due the throbbing headache I was now experiencing.

Moving in my heavily drunken state I find a much needed seat at the bar I place my butt carelessly in the free seat and motioned to bar tender to slide me a matinee with extra olives I using one of my perfectly manicured fingers I swirl around with olives for while before bringing matinee glass to my lips taking it in one go I motioned to bartender for for another , holding matinee glass in my hands I ask the bar tender to pass me a straw I place it in glass and put it in between my lips now sipping on my drink

I Iook over across bar to notice young couple in heated make out session seriously getting it on in one of dark corners of the club I soon regonised them as Michelle and Aaron just couldn't help but laugh at the sight though it made me miss Ryan stumbling around I make my way through a sea of tired sweaty bodies all dancing wildly to inappropriate music,  I fight my way through in the hopes finding Ryan since to today was going to be the big day I was going to finally loose my virginity to Ryan my long time boyfriend of 4 years boyfriend we always kissed and made out passionately but never had gone extra mile to actually do it with him he was the most compassionate person and loving boyfriend, he had never pressured me into sex and has always been gentle to me so it made sense to me that this was right time and I promised him the day I was ready we would do it in a room of our favourite club the famous club zed

Actually the main reason of bringing all my friends here was to keep them busy as me and Ryan came to do what we had planned

I was no longer going to be Emily the girl , but rather Emily the woman a smile creeps on my face just on thought of being in Ryan's arms officially for first time I had come prepared with the condoms dressed in black lace two piece lingerie that show cased all curves of my body I couldn't help but smile at thought of them finally coming off and me being Ryan's girl

Brushing away my thoughts I make I complete my look with hot red lipstick to compliment my sexy lingerie look and covered it with trench coat and made my way to honey moon suite

A rush of adrenaline fills my body draining alcohol from my body sobering me. instant after being greeted with a sight my boyfriend pants down with some other hore shamelessly having hard core sex with her hurt by sight I run out there with tears flowing from eyes I run out there as fast as I can

But Ryan chases after me asking for forgiveness I run out of club leaving him there I made sure to use back entrance I didn't want Aaron saying I told you so

I reach home and begin sobbing ,the thought of dialing Aaron's number crosses my mind but , I had been long since Aaron had a girlfriend and am not about to be selfish thinking only about my self I was going keep this from him for as long as I can not matter how much it hurts me to keep quite

Night falls before long It was morning I hadn't slept a wink since found out that Ryan had been cheating on me and that Aaron had been right about him all this time but wasn't about give Ryan scarification of breaking me so I wore like ten layers of conclear to hide the the dark circles under my eyes heavy makeup and wore my clothes and drove to school

Reaching there Aaron and the rest of my friends Jason, Michelle Courtney Damian Kimberly all bombard me with thanks for the night out I reply them and we all make way to class were have our first lesson chemistry during class the image of Ryan and that hore from last night kept haunting my mind I could not even focus on what Mr Kawisky was teaching alI saw now we're images of Ryan's infidelity and betrayal I couldn't believe he would to his "baby dolI" I thought he was my man and we would get married but I twas all a lie and he just wanted to get into my nickers I felt so foolish for believing him a tear escapes my eye as thoughts kept playing in my mind