MY DIARY: dream, love, die

I am Sofia, and this is MY DIARY

I'am now 35, I know its very too late to start writing this stupid little book. I'm in my room, alone, so dark and cold, it's raining outside, terrefying lighiting and thunders. While writing, my hands synchronize the shaking of my body. Before its too late and before cops try to get me outta here,  I do still have few minutes to write my confession and after this, BANG! silence reign in this four corners of my creepy room.

When I was 20, I live a simple yet ambitious life with my 65 year old granny. I started my wildest, ambitouis dream of becoming an all known popular singer when I was 11, not just in this damn city but in the whole world . I'm gonna defeat all those assholes. When I was 15, both of my parents died in a tragic accident, yet my lovely old grandma helped me to bring back all my courage and continued dreaming. Years later, I finished my bachelors degree and with all the love and support of my lovely grandma. 3 years after I graduated, I and my grandma enjoyed the welath I received from my profession. But- but this ain't enough for me, I still have the desire to become a popular singer in the whole world. As my grandma begged me to put so much attention in studies, with all the respect I follwed her. But then I realized, that's fucking too much. 3 years?! whole crap! that was so extremely losing time for me.

Without the cosent of my grandma, I quitted, give up my profession, submitted my letter to resign and flew away without any reason. In that very  moment, I started searching and finding my best luck. Every steps I count off from my previous work, is a new steps closer to my dream. 1hour, 2 , 3, 4 , 5hours and many hours passed by still nothing. Until, mr.moon comes out, reign the whole city with darkness. I saw then lots of worthless people, tss.! no dreams, beggars, prospitutes, drunk cards just worthless. I don't wanna be like them, people with no dreams at all.

That day, that evening. With all the luck I got, my desire. My first time and my first way to sing infront of many people all happened in that perfect night. Then my dream fulfilled. I then beacame a professional singer to my professional listeners. When I was 28, I was then became a very popular singer in the whole world. All my dreams came true, I traveled world wide, I heared the loudest scream of my fans, their eyes tears everytime they see me, and hands reached out just to touch me. I love the way I live, though my grandma didn't have the chance to be part with it.

Fame, Money, Man, Sex, Wealth I have them all. When I was 31, I meet him, love of my life. We do same thing, singing. I meet him in the most romantic way that destiny granted. We are good friends since when managment included their band in my concerts. No one ever give time to compose a song for me, but when I meet him, my world changes. We always dreamed to settle down and build a family. We love eachother so much. We shared love for more than 4years.

He asked me to stop singing, at that very moment I was so schoked. I repeatedly said "NO,NO,NO,NO and NEVER!" but he insisted. He tried to convince me by saying "I will marry you, like what i've said. Our dream that we will settledown and live together, respect and love you, no matter what you've been before" . We've been together for 4years, he loves me so much, cared and never disrespect me, I who lives a fiflty life given a chance to deserve him. But- but i only have one dream, and that dream is to become a popular singer in the whole world and now i'm enjoying it, no one, even him can ruin it. As he continued insisting. A shimmering object caught my attention, i grabbed it, and when its in my hand I realized that it was a knife, without his awareness I turned to his back with a knife in my hand. I slashed his throat repeatedly until no words came to his mouth.

Now, here in my creepy room. Still i'm shaking in cold, thunders roar. Here in my dark room that only lightning can give a light. I can hear now the sirens came from cops mobile. They will catch me, but that would not happend.