The Worlds A Broken Bone (Brendon Urie One shot)

I Need To Be Honest For Once

Imagine you waking up one day after having a beautiful ryden being canon dream. You go to your computer as you always do right when u wake up to check on your internet friends and shit. You see you have over 100 notifications from Instagram, twitter, tumblr, text, etc. Your so confused. 'Wtf is going on?' You look at one of these notifications. It's a link to a video the panic! YouTube account has uploaded. 'Ooh maybe it's a cool behind the scenes vid? But why so much fuss about that'. You read the text below it before clicking the link for some hints. "IM BALLING RIGHT NOW! ITS HAPPENING. GO WATCH THIS VIDEO NOW!!!!!" Major confusion goes through your furrowed face now. You click the link to be lead to a video titled "I Need To Be Honest For Once." And the thumbnail is of just Brendon. 'It looks like he's crying?' You get really nervous and hesitantly hit play. Brendon: "hello panic! Fans. Um...this may look a little confusing. Um. Ok this is really hard for me to confess and I know you may be confuse to why I am now spilling this. I'm just tired of denying the past and letting everyone keep me from happieness." He started looking really sad and some tears started welling out of his eyes. "I was dating Ryan Ross before he left the band." Your eyes widen and you go to your notifications and start to read them while still watching Brendon confess. "I...I loved him....I love him. Now I know this may be a little confusing. Um." He wiped away his tears. "What happened really was...I'm gonna get in so much trouble..but I don't fucking care cuz nothing has ever been worse than losing him. Nothing. Anyways um...me and Ryan were together. We didn't tell anyone for awhile. Not even spencer or Jon. They eventually found out. We were so happy. And then all these rumours, as always, started that we were together. At first we were fine with it cuz well, it was true. And we didn't really think we were going to hide it. But then the record label talked to us. They said that we couldn't be together. That people wouldn't like us or respect the company if we did. Apparently a gay couple in a boy band would creat mayhem.....at the time...I...so, I agreed." He started to really pour out tears now. You can't believe what your hearing. You can feel the pain I'm him. See it. "I don't know why I did that. I don't know. Maybe I thought that we could still be together. In secret. Or maybe we would find a way to change there minds. But....Ryan knew it wouldn't change. Long story short..I broke his heart and he left........" He stopped talking. He was looking down, continuing to cry and just sit there with the camera on. 2 minute later he starts up again. "I have been empty without him. I've had to lie so much. Lie about me and Ryan. Lie about me and Sarah. We are not married. The label said that the Ryan stuff would go away only if I got married to a women. At the time I said yes cuz I was miserably and thought I may be happier if I had someone. Sarah is the best. She has been my friend. I love her. But not in that way. She's actually the one that convinced me to make this video." He chuckled a little. "Anyways...um...I'm done pretending. I'm sick of this industry and these stupid people telling us who we can love and control our lives....I'm sorry that I have lied to you guys. I love you all and hope you can forgive me. And I really really fucking hope that Ryan can too. Ryan. I love you so much. I never stopped thinking about you. Not for one second. I'm sorry. I know nothing I say will get you back....but, if you would let me, id love to talk to you. Please." He got up and disappeared from the video. You wave your cursor over the video seeing it's defiantly not over yet. You sit there in awe of what has just been revealed. He is finally back in view on the video with a guitar. He sits down and dries his face with his sleeve. "I'm sure all of you remember this song. Ryan wrote it. Back when he first showed it to me he said he wrote it for me. He never explained to me why....i think I finally found it out." He starts strumming the beginning melody. I recognize it. He starts to sing. (AT THIS PART I RECOMMEND YOU TURN ON A VIDEO OF BRENDON LIVE SINGING NORTHERN DOWNPOUR AFTER THE SPLIT) "hey moon don't you go down...sugarcane in the easy morning, weather vanes my one and only" He continues to tear up while singing. "I know the worlds a broken bone, but melt your headaches call it home." After that line he stops singing and keeps playing the tune. He plays a little more then stops abruptly. "I love you all. Once again I'm sorry." And the video ends.