y/n = your name
i never fully realized what it meant to truly hurt until i wanted him.
To such a great extent, only to have one choice but to try and convince myself that i didn't.
if only he saw the tear drops, or hear me cry his name but to see me and hold me just the same. Each day is painful each breathe and step i take.
i can't be the one to hold his hand but i love him with a love that no one understands.
i sigh at my thought of him. Suddenly i hear the door open, it's him.
i wipe the few tears that have escaped my eyes and fake my smile.
he smiles his beautiful smile dimples popping out. he was with her i smell her. but i can't get mad i'm just his best friend she's his girlfriend.
"hi y/n"
"hi haz" i said quietly looking down.
nothing has been the same after him and his girlfriend got together.
in school i was the pretty quiet awkward girl, while harry was a "cold hearted" jock but if you got to know him like me his a sweet heart. his girlfriend becky, she was the rich poplar plastic in my school.
suddenly harry cuts me out of my thoughts
"sorry i'm late for movie night i had to run over to becky's" he says softly.
"you might as well just go, everything has changed when you guys got together. you started to distance not talk to me in school and ditch me, for her"
immediately my vision blurs and tears escape.
he stayed silent for a while and just watched as i fell apart.
i got up and i blew up.
"harry you don't understand how this has been affecting me i - i'm alone i have no one to run to when i'm sad or when i need a cuddle buddy or advice your gone your not you and i want my best friend haz back and until then i don't want to speak to whoever it is that you are because you aren't the harry i once knew"
i break down at this point
"why is it affecting you so much? does it matter, just because i found another girl and your not my main source doesn't mean anything y/n. she's my girlfriend your not." he said harshly
his words cut me like a knife repeatedly.
"your right i'm your best friend the person who'll be here for you when she finds a new boy toy and breaks your fuxking heart harry" i sigh
"your right but she hasn't and at this rate why does it mean so much to you y/n tell me god damn it!"
he basically yells at me
i cry even harder then before. i look at him and mumble.
"because harry i'm in love with you" it slipped i looked up at his shocked face and i ran. i ran upstairs ignoring him calling my name.
i locked my bedroom door. i learned against the door and slid down feeling worthless and stupid.
i heard the front door close, he left.
my heart fell at that moment and shattered into a million pieces.
i woke up in my bed confused. i felt strong arms around me and i turn to see harry looking at me.
"why are you here, y- you left" you whisper trying not to cry
he nods
"i left and broke it off with becky" he says emotionless.
"why?" i sniffle
"because i'm in love with you too y/n" he says softly
all the broken pieces of my heart i had picked up and placed into his hands. he loved me back after all these years, he has felt the same.
i smile foolishly but before i can speak i was cut off by soft lips on my own.
