I woke up to another day of school didn't really feel like going so why not just stay home in
Pretend I'm sick, why not I did it before.
After getting my plan I started two drift off to sleep when I woke up you where still here I tried to avoid you by staying
In my room in on my iPad till you left but you never did. When you walk in my room my heart started to race didn't know why you were in there, you came two me in gave me a pill my mom told me to take after you left out I threw the pill away.
When I thought you where gone I went to go use the bathroom but when you came in my room in you started two sit in talk to me I started to breath heavier not knowing if you notice but when you got closer I just knew something was going to happen to me
When you ask me those questions in you started to get closer in laying on my bed I couldn't help but to move away
When You started two touch me I knew this is going to be the end of my luck in life first you started two kiss my neck in started two make noise I try to move away tried pushing you off but you just got closer I kept my head down so you can't try anything else sometimes I think you just wanted my mom to get two me. When you started to move my neck in whispering things in my ear like "come on, come here " I couldn't take it no more I tried to get out of your grip. When you finally stop you walk to my doorway turned around In gave me $5 I knew from now then I'm trash after those words "keep this our little secret" I knew I couldn't just let you just disrespect me like that so after you finally left the house I ran two the bathroom in took a 2 hour shower in crying my eyes out I called my cousin and text my brother. After I told her she told her mom in speed all the way from bellflower to San Bernardino, after 4 hours of being in a terrible situation everyone finally comes lots in lots of cops but you where no where to be found. After only telling my cousin in brother everybody was on my side if I just wanted him gone I would have been did this but I was telling the truth in when my mom didn't believe any word that was coming out of my mouth in being on your side the only thing I could really do was cry even more so when I went to my aunties house I started thinking of what happen over in over again replaying every signal moment every detail I try not to but I couldn't.
Now, it's a couple of months later I don't trust nobody In when my mom started to come home late I just knew she was with you she puts you over her kids every time. Now it's a late night in she comes in my room to see if I'm sleep then she closes my door which is weird because she doesn't like us up late that's when I start to think after of me just thinking I'm paranoid when I started to hear her bed bumping her wall I just knew you where here I hurried up in text my cousin in my brother when I finally told them they sent the cops over my house when I opened the door the came in and knock on her door which wasn't even close right. I sat down in they brought you out of the room in sat you down on the very far side of the room then my mom comes sits by me in takes my iPad to see what I've been saying. When you started staring at me I just wanted to snap in beat the livening shit out of you when the cops said they couldn't take you away in you could stay if you please I just wanted to leave or go to jail just so would never see your face ever again. When you left with the cops followed behind you my mom tried to talk to me but I wasn't hearing anything she was saying to me now, from now on she was not my mother I didn't know who this women was because my mother would never turn her back on her only daughter this lady is the lady I have no respect for no more a couple of days pass by in the terrible moment started to all come back at once I couldn't take it anymore all I wanted to do was kill or even self harm after plaining my death in how it would happen I start to send messages to my friends telling them I love them but I had to go, when it was finally time I couldn't do it I just couldn't.now I'm stuck in this miserable life in world in by the day it gets worst every time is even hear your name or think of you I start to cry wanting to think bad thoughts even if I try to think positive thoughts I couldn't I just wanted to kill you because of what you have done to me I've always thought I would NEVER be one of those girls who moms boyfriend who sexily harass but I was wrong I thought I was to luckily to even be in one of theses situations but I guess god had a different path for me but I just it wasn't this one now I have nightmares about you coming back in doing worst two me with my mother behind you laughing. Why couldn't I have just been normal ,now my body is just lifeless flesh walking around for whatever reason why couldn't you just do what you really wanted to do in kill me after why couldn't you have just left in didn't show up at all why must my body be on your mind when your with my mom why must. Why be the word I use the most for this situation
From: India Alexis glover
To: Ervin
