Falling for the bad boy..

I need him..

I walked until 7 that morning, not knowing where I was, however I didn't care. How could he.. he was the only thing I had besides the boys. I had a million thoughts per second running through my mind as I sat on a park bench in the dark crying. Why am I not good enough? Am I too good? Why aren't I pretty? Why do I need him?.. fuck.. I really do need him.

I returned to my new so called home at 10 still running on no sleep. Mr. and Mrs. O'Neil weren't home because they had already gone to work. However when I was walking upstairs.. I heard a very strange noise.. crying? Matt is crying.. over me?.. I can't do this right now. I quietly walked to my room and locked the door behind me.

*Matts POV*

I fucked up.. I fucked up bad. I really wasn't kissing Marissa I know the usual excuse but I really wasn't. Marissa literally pushed me up against the wall and shoved her nasty disease invested tongue in my mouth. I pushed her off as soon as I realized. Fuck Harley is really all I have. I can't loose her. She's the one who makes me wanna become a better person for her, I want her. Now look at me I'm actually crying over her, me the bad boy !! Crying over some girl. Never would I thought to see the day of me crying of some girl, but that's the thing she's not just some girl... She's my girl.

*Harleys POV*
I did it again.. I stopped thinking. I cut. 3 times on each of my thighs.. all I thought about was Marissa and him kissing. I couldn't take it. He's all I want.. when I'm around him the darkness that I have just disappears but I don't know if I have him anymore..

~a few hours later~

It's around 3 now.. and I've decided. I'm going to talk to him. I've threw on a pair of sweats and his t shirt.. might as well be comfortable.. I've tried to wipe away my tear stained face but every time I do I start crying again so I've given up... I got up from my bed, and walked over to my door. I quietly unlocked it and walked across the hall. When I reached his door I took a deep breath and did a light knock. He actually came to his door right away.. why does he have to be so hot.. his dark hair was messy it looked as if he just got out of the shower and he was wearing light sweats and a black tee that clung to his body showing his abs.. but his bright blue eyes weren't bright they were a dark blue.. I can't help myself, I immediately clung to him and attached our lips and he immediately kissed me back passionately like I was the only person on the earth that he wanted. As we pulled away a tear slipped down my cheek he looked up at me and wiped the tear away, "don't cry doll face.. trust me I'm all yours" he whispered in my ear while nibbling on my ear lobe.. as chills radiated throughout my body I leaped on him, wrapping my legs around his chest pulling him back in as I shut the door behind us. And well you get the rest.

*told you not to worry !! But ooooou she's no longer a virgin !! Hmm wonder what trouble awaits for the two.. guess you'll have to keep reading to find out ;)"