They say that time heals all wounds. But wounds can leave behind scars. Holding everything in up until this point has destroyed me and I am too unmotivated to keep it going. I don't blame anyone but myself, for not seeing the signs when I should have, because they were so damn obvious. I was just too lost in what could have been to see them. I'm not mad at you, but I'm mad at myself. I shouldn't have tried so hard. I put so much effort and feeling into it, so much to the point that now I feel like I'm suffocating. I'm afraid to say it personally, afraid of what you'll think of me. I only wanted to be the best for you, and now life has shown me exactly what that is. It's a hard truth, one that might take me forever to learn. I'm emotionally destabilized, and too afraid to tell anyone. It has cracked me more than I can say, and I'm the one who will have to repair me. Please don't be upset or blame yourself because you did nothing wrong. You chose a path, one that you believe will make you happy, and that's all I ever wanted. You mean the most to me, and I'm not wanting to give that up. I will always want you in my life, because I love you. I love you with all myheart, because I see all the good in you, everything you have trouble seeing. It's there, and I'm glad to be able to know it. You're the best thing to come into my life, and I hope you stay. You're moving on to great things, and I will always love you. Stay gold, Ponyboy.
Yours truly
M
