SUNSHINE//A PHANFICTION

A Bad Dream

"Wake up."

I grunt. I dont really feel waking up yet. My head still hurts from the last night. Theres a faint light coming from my window. Who put the curtains away? Ugh.

"Dan."

I heard Phil calling my naMe. I might still be dreaming. Please dont wake me up, my dreams are way better than my reality anyway.

"Dan, hey! Wake up!"

I slowly open my eyes. A nice surprise greeted me. Its Phil. I cant believe my eyes. Is that really him? He is standing near my bed, looking so worried.

"Phil...? Youre Phil, arent you?"

"Is there any other Phil in this place? Of course its me! Why are you crying in your sleep? Are you alright---" I hug him before he even finishes his sentence.

"Youre here. You dont really leave me. Oh God, oh God...!"

He gently pats my head. "Whats happening? Did you have a really bad dream?"

"Will you promise that youll never leave me again?" I tried to fight back my tears.

"Again? Come on Dan. You know that Ill never leave you. Hush now, its just a bad dream."

I tried to calm myself down. That was indeed a really bad dream. In my dream he was...gone. Im sure glad thats just a dream! I looked at Phil. Somehow, his warm smile comforts me. Looking at him like that, I wanted to hug him again and never let him go.

"Oh no, my pancakes!" He quickly get up. I smell the burning pancakes. Is he cooking breakfast for us?

"Phil, wait! Dont leave me."

He giggle. "Dont worry, I wont. I just need to get back at the kitchen!"

I grab a clothe from my closet and put it on. I looked around my room. Why do I feel like something is off? It must be that damn dream.

Wait, its not right for me to just stand here while Phil is doing all the work. I should help Phil.

"Phil?" I yell. "Do you need any help?"

"Great! Can you hold Mr. Sunshine for a second?"

"Mr. Sunshine---?" Before I even got to where Phil is, a dog, a cute golden retriever, suddenly came running towards me. Did one of our friend left their dog for a while?

"Where did you get this dog?"

"What do you mean where? Its ours. Mr. Sunshine is our dog!"

"Really? I cant remember us having a dog?"

"Come on Dan. Its your gift for me on my last birthday."

Did that really happen? I cant remember. Well, at least Phil sounds happy having this dog around. Mr. Sunshine, huh? I pat the dogs head. I am planning to give him one before but I didnt have the chance since he---

No. I should stop remembering that damn dream.

I walked to our kitchen where Phil is while the dog follows me, and I saw him busy preparing our meal. I sat on a chair next to him while I watched him do his stuff.

"Hey Dan, do dogs eat pancake? I made one for Mr. Sunshine, look, its bone-shaped! Hmm. I kinda remember Papyrus, doesnt he like bones? Do you think Mr. Sunshine will eat a very Papyrus like pancake? Dan. Hey. DAN!"

He waves his hand over my face. "Oh. W-what?"

"Youre not listening. Are you ok?"

For some reason, I just wanted to watch Phil and just appreciate him being there. I dont want to get off my eyes on him because Im afraid that he will be gone the moment I take my eyes off him. Its really strange, I know, but I feel like its the last time Ill see him like this. So I just stay there, silently watch him do the usual things.

"Hey. Do you want to say something to me? I can listen."

"Thank you." I said.

"For what? Why are you acting so strange?"

"For being there for me always. Thank you."

He smiles.

"No Dan, thank you. Thank you for defending me, for helping me, for making me the way I am. Thank you for letting me become a part of your life. Thank you for everything."

I began to notice the tears falling from my eyes. Why am I so emotional today? I even make Phil say all that things for me. Its really sweet, but I dont like how it sounds like a goodbye.

"Im sorry, I think Ive watched too many dramas lately." I wipe my tears and tried to laugh it off. Seeing Phil standing again before me makes me feel really sad, happy, and scared at the same time; my heart just want to explode from all the emotions I am feeling right now. Whats happening to me?

Phil flashes a sad smile before he pull me into a tight embrace.



"I am really, really sorry if I made you cry again. Its my fault. But please, remember that I always wanted you to be happy. Dont mind me, I will be happy as long as I see you smiling."

"Phil are you crying? Please dont. I dont want to see you crying like that. Please."

"Im sorry I leave you so soon. I dont want to leave you alone like that. I want to stay but I cant. Im really sorry Dan..."

What is he saying? I dont understand a bit. But at the same time, I feel like my heart really needs the words Phil just said. I dont want to let go. I just want us to stay like this forever.

"I love you so much Dan. Youre the greatest person Ive ever met." He whispers.

"Same. I love you too, Phil."

"Please dont forget me. Our friendship. Please dont forget that Phil Lester, a friend that you had once upon your life. And please, please... be happy for me. Remember that I will always be in your heart. I will miss you, Dan."

I held him even tighter. I dont even want to open my eyes. I just want to treasure this moment.

"Till we met again." He whispers.

After a few more seconds, I can no longer feel his hug. I was left there, sitting on the chair, still with my eyes close. The room was once again filled with silence. Deafening silence. That is, until my alarm rings.

I woke up.