SUNSHINE//A PHANFICTION

Acceptance

I woke up.

Tears started to fall from my eyes. I dream about him again.

I looked around his room. Ive been sleeping on his bed ever since the incident, because I feel comforted being surrounded by the things that remind me of him.

I still cant believe that Phil is dead.

Hes gone.

Forever.

I always tell myself  that he will come back, that he just need some time to do his things alone in a really far place. Ive been denying everything that happened and created a happy little world inside my hEad where everything is fine. I wrote this letters and make myself believe that Phil is reading this, or at least he will when he comes back.

I tried calling his name again and again, hoping that he will somehow magically appear, and I guess he heard my call and gave me a little gift.

He came back.

He did. He was here last night. He came back once again to say a proper goodbye.

He has no idea how much happiness he truly brings, and I felt all of that again last night. For a short while, I felt that warm light from his soul that once again brighten up my dark world. Without me knowing, he became the sunshine that brought me out when Im hiding myself from the rain.

Everyday is a dark night without him.

But then, I realized that the moon and stars are still there. The sun might be gone but there are still other stars that will light up my path for me again.

I... I think its time for me to finally accept things.

I have watched you throughout the years, how you laugh, smile, cry, and grow; but now I need to finally let you go.

I know that life would be difficult without you, so I needed to be strong for me to be happy again. You saved me that day and it cost you your life, so I need to live my life for you. You might be gone but you will always be alive in my heart.

Phil. I think this would be the last time Im writing for you. Remember that I will never forget you. I will forever miss you. Thank you for everything.

I love you.

Goodbye.