MACON'S POV
when lunch hour rolled around, i had decided that i would go to see ethan. i needed to clear things up, about last night, and about everything.
he deserved to know.
the drive to ethan's house was one of the most nerve wracking experiences of my entire life. i didn't know how he was gonna react, if he was gonna be mad, sad, or just nothing at all.
i pulled up in his driveway and took a deep breath as i stepped out of my car, and looked to his gorgeous home, rethinking if i should be doing this.
he's gonna hate me.
i walked up his driveway until i stood at his front door. i took a long deep breath as i forced my hand up to knock on the door.
my knuckles tapped the wood lightly, the sound causing my heart beat to pick up. anxious much?
i stood there looking at my feet waiting for an answer, but i wouldn't be surprised if i didn't get one.
i had waited about a minute and a half before deciding to just go back to my car and act like i never came, obviously he didn't want to see me.
but before i could walk away, the door was pulled open, revealing a shirtless ethan. he had on a pair of black sweatpants that hung loosely around his waist, his prominent v-line poking out the top.
holy hell.
his hair looked a little damp and his cheeks look flushed.
like he just had sex.
"macon?" he asks, surprise in his tone, "uh what are you doing here?" he sounded nervous, like really nervous as he looked behind him and stepped out, joining me on the front porch.
weird.
whatever.
he stood in front of me, his arms crossed over his bare chest, waiting for me to answer as his eyes never left my face.
here goes nothing.
"i uh, i came here to talk to you." i mutter, lacing my hands together to hide the fact that i was shaking.
he looked surprised, i watched as a small smile crept onto his face, but almost immediately it was wiped off.
"what about?" he cocks his head a little to the side, looking directly into my eyes.
i knew he could see how vulnerable i was when he looked into my eyes, and i swore i could've seen his expression soften just a little bit. his eyes took my breath away, and made my heart race at a million miles a minute.
but i looked down to the ground.
"y'know...you and me." i say, gesturing between me and him as i brought my head back up once again. he looked completely shocked, but like a happy shocked, and that brought me a little bit of hope.
i waited nervously for him to answer, i knew it was a stupid idea coming here. i fucked up so bad, why would i ever think he wanted to see me?
maybe because he said he loved you macon.
when he didn't answer i decided to speak up, "you know what, never mind, i'll just go." i gesture to my car behind me, "i'm sorry ethan."
for everything. i thought as i turned on my heel to head back to my car, feeling completely discouraged.
i know i hurt you. how stupid of me.
"wait mac-" he's interrupted as the door opens behind him. i jerk my head back towards him, hope filling my veins but it's completely washed away as my gaze lands on none other than laci, causing a very audible gasp to escape my mouth.
she stood there in one of ethan's t-shirts. one that i myself had worn before.
ethan looked back at her with a glare, but she just smirked. knowing she affected me.
it made sense now.
ethan came to my house to say goodbye, he was gonna go back to laci.
i did the same thing, betrayed him with grayson, i don't know why i expected anything less than what i was being given.
my eyes trail on laci for a couple more seconds until they move to ethan. he looked at me with eyes full of sorrow, and i gave him the same look back.
i knew that he knew what i felt when i looked at him, it was written on his face. realization. hurt. confusion. love. sorrow. anger. all of it.
"i'm sorry ethan." i spoke as i finished the walk to my car, starting it without looking back, not wanting to look at ethan and laci again and have my heart completely shatter.
that's one thing ethan and i have in common.
we both wear our hearts on our sleeves.
time to go talk to grayson.
hello!
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