Beautiful Disaster (Draco Malfoy)

Chapter Six

Author's Note: Thank CrispyMarshmallow for this update!! She helped cure my insane writer's block :D Extreme sorry for the delay!! I don't have much more than this written, but I felt bad keeping you all waiting over a YEAR so I figured post it ASAP! Enjoy (:

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Draco put his arm around my shoulders and I let him lead me to wherever we were going. He could have dragged me off to the middle of the forbidden forest and murdered me and I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t have noticed. 

I decided to count my footsteps. I needed to get my mind off of my mom. The mental pain was literally too much for me to handle. 

I got to three hundred and six when we stopped walking. 

“Before I bring you to Snape, I need to talk to you.” He said. I completely forgot I was with him, even though he was holding my arm the whole time. 

I nodded because I didn’t think I could do much else without crying again. 

“I just...I just want to let you know that we can forget about our past. For now. I need you to know that I can be your friend. I think you need a friend right about now.” 

I sniffed. “I have friends.” 

“Who? Paige and Lucy? You don’t even really like them. Blaise? He’s not good for you. Lexy, you and I both know that I am more like you than you are willing to admit. Have you ever really opened up to any of them? They don’t understand you like I do. You need me.”

I couldn’t even believe what he was saying. Was he serious?! Who was he to tell me who my friends are?! 

I slapped him. “Fuck off, Malfoy!” 

I turned and left him. I need him?! Excuse me?!

He ran after me. 

“Ok, maybe that was a little harsh-”

“Draco Malfoy, you listen to me right now.” I yelled through gritted teeth. “I can’t deal with you right now! How dare you act like you know everything! You know nothing! You don’t know me! Please, do us both a favor and just leave me alone. For good.” 

Any other day, I never would have said that. No matter how angry I ever could have gotten at him, I never would have said that. 

Today, though this isn’t an excuse, today is different. Today my mother is dead. Today Blaise probably hates me. Today Malfoy pissed me off more than I ever have been. Today I started sobbing my eyes out because I refused to believe him. Even though, he may have been right. 

***

Lucy and Paige helped me pack all of my stuff. I was too depressed to do anything. I didn’t sleep. I changed myself and brushed my teeth. I didn’t eat breakfast, I was too nauseous from reality. 

Paige and Lucy tried talking to me all morning but I barely knew what they were saying. They stayed by my side all morning. Screw Malfoy. I know who my friends are. 

We met Professor McGonagall in the Great Hall. She hugged me and spoke very gently to me. I was barely there. 

Blaise carried my bags (Malfoy explained himself apparently, though I didn’t really care) and Paige and Lucy walked along beside me all the way to the train. I didn’t see Malfoy at all. Prick.

“Your father will be waiting for you in London.” McGonagall told me. That was the only thing I actually heard all morning. 

I nodded at her. I wanted to thank her, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t do anything but put one foot in front of the other. 

Paige and Lucy both gave me a hug before I boarded the train. They looked like they were going to cry and told me that everything would be ok and that they’d see me soon. Nothing they said or did comforted me. 

Blaise helped me carry my bag on the train and into my compartment. 

After he put it away, we were alone and he gave me a big hug. He held me tight and I fought back tears. I breathed slowly. 

He pulled back and wiped a tear from my eye. “Have a safe trip.” He said softly. 

I stared at him as he slowly leaned in and kissed me. 

I was frozen and barely registered what happened. My eyes were open the whole time and I wondered if that was reality or if I was hallucinating. 

The whistle on the train blew, Blaise gave me a half smile that I knew was real, and then he was gone and I was left on the train by myself. I sat down and stared down at my hands. I wasn’t ready to look out the window yet. There were still people in sight. 

Real people. 

Living people. 

Tears fell from my eyes as the train started moving. I got up, closed the compartment door so I was completely alone, wrapped my black sweatshirt closer around me with my hood on, sprawled out on the seat and closed my eyes, willing myself to sleep. I had to escape the pain. I had to escape reality. 

A dreamless sleep was the only way out. 

I listened to the train and all the noises of life around me. The sound of the train moving beneath me was a comfort. I focused on that and slowly dozed off hoping to wake up far away in another world.

***

I woke up about fifteen minutes before we reached Kings Cross station. The fact that I had actually slept made me feel good, but my whole body ached when I stretched out. 

Fifteen minutes. 

I had fifteen minutes of solitude. Fifteen minutes of slight comfort until I had to face my father. 

I was terrified of seeing him.

It would be the first time since my mother...

Tears formed in my eyes again and I shunned out the thought. I focused on my breathing. Maybe if I thought about unicorns I’d feel better...

Yeah. Unicorns. 

They are like horses with a horn. 

Horses. 

Horse-like creature. 

Like a hippogriff. 

Like Buck...something. Whatever it’s name was. You know, the one that attacked Malfoy. 

Malfoy. 

The thought of him should have made me furious. 

Instead, I thought about his arms comforting me. His presence soothing my mental pain. 

What.

Malfoy? Soothing?

Maybe I need to see a therapist. 

Therapy.

Yeah. 

Good idea.

We started pulling into Kings Cross and my heart starting beating faster and faster. As we came to a complete stop I grabbed my trunk and slowly made my way off of the train. I looked around for my father for a few minutes before seeing Lucius Malfoy. 

He caught my eye and sneered at me. 

He made his way closer to me. 

“Alexandra.” He said with his cold smile. “I’ve been expecting you.” 

“Where is my father?” I asked, throughly confused. 

He gave me a cold smile that chilled me to the bone. “You’ll find out soon enough.”