Shinigami Marching Band (Black Butler)

Chapter Ten ~ Boyfriend

Sorry for the long wait, I've been busy and then I had a minor surgery thing. I'm all good now and on bedrest so I have a lot of free time for writing. NOW ENJOY THIS WONDERFUL CHAPTER WHILE I GO REST!

"WHAT!" William screamed at the solution that had been presented. A boyfriend? Why? What will that help? and then it all clicked. He understood the reasoning and he got what Grell had been trying to say. He still had no idea what to do though. He couldn't think of anyone he particularly wanted to date, let alone would be willing to date .... well except for one person. But he couldn't bring himself to ask that of Grell. Yet he also couldn't bring himself to consider being with anyone else either because that would just break the redhead's heart. He wanted to be able to commit to a relationship fully and he didn't believe he could do that right now with the way his mental state was. He wouldn't want to put Grell through the pain of when he was in one of his moods and pushed him away.

Grell had been waiting for William to say something more than just his initial outburst but it seemed the brunet was lost in thought. "Earth to Will, you okay?" He asked, waving a hand in front of his face. "You're kind of worrying me here. You've been staring into space for like five minutes."

"Oh, uh yeah. I'm fine. I just .... I-I'm not sure I like this plan." Will admitted as he scratched the back of his neck.

"Too many options to choose from?" Grell teased.

William laughed a bit and sighed. "Quite the opposite."

"No options at all?" Grell asked sarcastically. "Well you know I'm always a willing volunteer." He said, blushing a bit. He had never really been that direct about his feelings towards William. In the past he had always been discrete about it, or as discrete as his flamboyancy would allow.

"...I ..... I don't want you to have to deal with my moody rejection when it rolls around. I don't ever want to see you hurt." William admitted. He figured if they were going to be totally honest here, he wouldn't sugarcoat anything or elaborate. The simple truth was the best, after all.

"I know you'll have moods. I'll be able to manage. It'll be okay. But only if it's what you want when you're not in those denial moods. Only if you want to be with me. If not, I completely understand." Grell said, once again baring his soul for William. The light breakfast conversation had turned so intense so quickly and it was almost suffocating.

"I'm not saying I don't want to. In fact I can't imagine trying to be with anyone else right now, but who knows ... in an hour I could be in one of those moods again and could say something I won't mean that'll hurt you." Will said looking Grell in the eyes and holding his gaze.

Grell nodded in understanding and sighed. "Well I'll just have to keep in mind that you don't really mean it then. I'm not pushing this for me, I'm pushing it for you. If being gay is the thing your parents have a problem with then you need to put it in their faces and make them accept you. If they still can't then they don't really care about you as a person." He explained. He wanted more than anything for William to feel in control of himself and feel accepted for who he was.

William took a pause to take in what Grell had said. "What if my dad beats me again?" He finally said after a long pause.

"Then you can stay with a friend, it doesn't have to be me. I'm willing to bet Ronnie's parents would let you stay at Ron's place. Even Adrian would probably let you stay with him. I'm always here for you if that happens though, you know that right? Even if they just yell at you, I'll be here for you. If you want me to help you tell them, I'll be there, right by your side..." Grell trailed off. He knew that doubt was swimming within William's mind, but he also knew that this was one of the only ways to help Will at the same time. Waiting untl he graduated and moved out to come out to his parents would only make them break contact with him and probably 'disown' him in their minds.