its not you im rejecting its my heart im protecting

Hi this is my first story please don't Judge or hate I know there are a lot of mistakes and bad grammer but just pretend its okay plz and thank you

Love shelby

Destiny"s POV

Im a normal girl i guess.Sometimes i cant help but wonder if i ever did deserve what happened that night at the party.I look at myself in the mirro.Im not the prettiest girl but im 5,4" i have drak brown curly hair and a stupid annoying big brother carlos.We moved into an apartmet together just a week ago because our parent dont wnat us in the dorms so they got us a hug apartment near campus.Tommorw i will being going to college at Texas University with my 2 besties Aimi and Lexi. Aimi is jappeneese for love and she is quiet and shy she is about 5,2" she has short layered brown hair and she is the smallest thing ever she doesnt realy date well to think about it i dont think she has ever had a boyfriend.Lexi is tall blond she has had milllions of boyfriends none of them serious she is one of the meanest and bitchest person well so i have heard but she is to everyone but me and Aimi.

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I had just turned 18 I Still remember the day December 10.Carlos had thrown me a huge party.I remember being in a drunk state of mind.its all a blur but its feels like I know.I don't want admit I know he dididnt rape but he .waking up cold and alone in a bed all alone with my clothes on the ground.the one thing o had told myself I would wait till mariage.I put on my clothes and drove to the clinic.

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"Weirdo why so serios"my friend lexi just came out of know where."nothing just thinking".at that moment iknew she knew what I had been thinking about.she just hugged me tightly.I couldn't help but cry I always had a bad habbit of feeling sorry for myself but I just couldn't help it."shhh just let it all out its over he won't ever be able to hurt you again."lexi is still holding me at tight has can be.I just couldnt help but fall to the ground.it always seemed when I had forgotton it would come back to bite me in thie ass."WHY CAN' I JUST FORGET!"Carlos walked into my room."what's her issue?"I could see anger bubble up in lexis eyes.she released me and grabbed a pillow and smacked the shut out of Carlos."GET THE FUCK OUT!!!!!"he just left like nothing had happend I got up.I went to the bathroom.I splashed water on my face and began to wipe of my make up .I couldn't help but look at the reflection and see the horiable person I had become the slur I had become.I punched the mirror.glass scattered every where. Blood flowed down my rist.Aimi walking in."OH MY GOSH!"she took of her sweater and rapped it out round my hand.She ran with me to rhw front door and lexi scared and confused just followed not even asking what hapoend.I could see the fear in aimi eyes has she rushed me to hospital.how could I have been so stupid.I could see the blood step through the sweater.I couldn't feel it that was the thing i just couldn't haddle.o began to sob."WHY CAN'T I FE ANYTHING I WANT TO FEEL SOMETHING WHY!"lexi just huddle me in the back seet.The moment we got to the hospital they rushed me to emergancy room.its just a bruised up hand but in that moment it all went black.

Aimi POV

I waiting in the waiting room with lexi. The doctor said she was loosing blood rapedly and I just couldnt help but want so badly to yell at them to help her but I couldnt.make my mouth form the words.i waited for three hours straight.when she finally came back she had cast around her hand."the doctor told me I punched the mirror so hard that some of the glass actual broke some of my fingers."destiny just said it so casually and natraly like nothing.I looked at her in shock with no words she just shrugged and walked out the hospital I paid the bill and ran after her .she wams just sitting in my car like nothing just waiting for me.I didn't want to say anything so I just got in and drove.I didn't know where to go,but i could hear destinys stomach growl."do you want to get something to eat .I kept my eyes focesed on the road."well na ill just starve to death."I laugh a little I coulnt help it.she always used sarcasm at the worst times,but in all Honesty it released the akwardness .

5hours later

I coulnt leave her here with Carlos.I know dumbass wouldn't do anything.so I have no choice but to stay and watch her.I got up and walked to the kitchen and smack.I had ran into to some guys half naked body he was he was wet but smelled so clean.he had no clothes on and he wad holding me.I just stood there like an idiot ."you might want to be note careful." He just smirked and picked up his towel,and walked off.should I be consened that a hot stranger is in destinys apartmeat ?"wait who are you?"

"Your dream boy."he smirked

"Why are you naked."

"The real question is why aren't you naked ?"he dropped his tow and my mouth dropped and I covered my eyes.

"Aww shy are we well I can change that." I could hear him walk off and a door shut .I uncovered my eyes.who is that dirty Fucking asshole.how dare he say that.I ran back to destinys room."who is the realy tall naked guy in your house?" And there lexi stood hair messed up shirt miss buttoned and not pants."Thag would be mine.'lexi said with a grin.destiny wad just laying there sound asleep."why dont we leaving sleeping beauty u got to meet them."she grabbed my hand and tugged me to carlis room.she swunf open the door and there 4 guys were."Hey ladies glad you came to join the party."said the half naked dude i saw in the hall but now he had in shorts but no shirt.lexi sat right down on his lap.I just stood there .I fwldt so uncomfortable.I just sat down on the floor and pressed my knees up to my chest and held them theier."This is Jason and the one with green eyes is kyle."he had the most greenest eyes. "The guy playing on the xbox with Carlos is rudy.He looked at me and smirked.Jason kept looking at me I couldn't help but wonder why?"where's Destiny?"says Carlos

"She is asleep ."I answered qouetly

"Then why are you here."he said with a dead serious face

I got up and just walked out the door and listened.

"Why you got to be mean to the short one dude."

I could tell it was Jason talking.I heard root steps I ran to the living room quietly.I quickly sat on the couch.

"Hey beatiful u seem lonely."he had the most devilish smirk.

"I'm actual quit content with being alone."I got up and walking to Destinys room.I looked over at the clock."FUCK its 5:49."I can't believe time flew by that fast.I ran to the shower .I had to run hot water for destiny.I quickly changed into my normal shorts and a t-shirt. I put my hair in a high ponytail.I ram to the kitchen and made destiny and lexi breakfasts.after I finished making breakfasts.I went to find lexi and u opened the door and laid the plate next to her."here I made breakfast."I walked out before she could respond.I opened destinys door and lightly shook her."time to wake up."she woke up and yawned and smiled.she got up and went straight to the bathroom and shut the door.I sighed and did her bed.I just don't want her to worry and I actual don't mind its kind .I walking back to living room and went out the door.I had to get my books from my car before I head to class.me and destiny actual lived in the same apartment complex I lived right across .as I grabed my books and headed up to destinys apartment I heard voices."hey do you mind if I get your number maybe we could hang out.""yea sure."oh my its destiny.lexi won't like this .veal I can't tell her but she is my bestfriend.I heard foot steps and a door shut .I walked right by him acting like nothing.I quickly opened the door and he stood on the hall ."hey again I never got your name."I opened the door and ran in and shut the door.I don't want to talk to that fuck.I put my books down and found destiny and lexi checking themselves.they both wor skinny jeans tight tank tops and 4in"heels."are ya almost ready" I asked impatiently.they both walked over to me with there stuff and out the door and to college we went.