Change; An Edwin Honoret Fanfiction

31 [UNEDITED]

After I unexpectedly asked Edwin to be my boyfriend, we didn't talk about it. We continued to dance, laugh and have a good time and thankfully the topic of relationships was not apart of that.

It's currently 1am and we're laying on a patch of grass outside of our hotel, stargazing, high on the need for sleep.

"If you ate yourself, would you become two times bigger or would you disappear?" He asks me, causing me to burst out in a fit of giggles once again.

"I'm serious!"

"See, I'm tempted to answer this all science-y but, I think you're kidding"

He turns his head to me while smiling, "I mean I was kidding initially, but now I'm curious"

I inhale deeply, "Well in this hypothetical situation, you'd be able to do so without dying before you finish. Your oesophagus squishes whatever you eat and your stomach acid burns it, so you'd become whatever is left over after it's been in your stomach acid, some gas from the burning and your oesophagus because it can't eat itself"

He rolls his eyes as he throws some grass into the air, "Boring" he chants.

I act hurt as I place my hand on my chest playfully. He just smiles, "I'm just playing. You know, you're smarter then you give yourself credit for"

"You are too, Edwin"

Silence fills the air as I physically feel the atmosphere change into a more serious one, and the question I was hoping wouldn't come out, does.

"What made you randomly ask me to, you know, be your boyfriend"

I turn my head to him, only for him to me looking back expectantly. "Edwin" I groan, "I'm not good at being sappy"

"Try, communication is an important part of a relationship you know"

As I stare into he hazel brown orbs, I remember exactly why I asked him to be my boyfriend. In that moment, all I could think about was how happy I felt knowing that this amazing man cared enough to fly across the world with me, that this beautiful being's happiness was partially created by someone as insignificant as myself. I felt lucky, lucky that he cares about me a portion of the amount that I care about him.

I can't tell him that though, because that's way too fucking deep for a 1am conversation. I'd much prefer to stick to eating yourself.

"Edwin, I wish you were able to physically feel the way that I feel about you, the way I think I've always felt about you, because you make me happy in a way that no one else has the ability of doing"

A small smile grows on his face, "If you felt this way all along, then why didn't you just ask me to be your boyfriend before?"

"The happiness you make me feel is an out of body experience, and I've never felt that before. I was scared, but I'm not anym-" I pause midway through my reply. "Anyway, this is cringe as fuck so I'm going to stop right there"

He laughs, "you're not wrong, but it's cute and very flattering so you know, I can deal"

I look up to the sky once again, taking him the view that is above me. The night skies here usually aren't anything special like your phone wallpaper, they were much more simple. But I've always been in love with it.

I assume I fell asleep outside as when I begin to become aware of my surroundings, we're in our hotel room and the morning sun is coming through the curtains, directly hitting my eye.

My eyes flutter open after about a minute of drifting between consciousness and unconsciousness, and of course the first thing I see, is Edwin in a towel. He looks around the room as if he's missing something, and when his brown eyes meet my he lets out some sort of a squeak. I assume that's because he wasn't expecting me to be awake.

He collects himself and steps closer to me, smiling lightly.

"Sorry if I woke you" he says as he kisses my forehead.

"It's fine, how'd I get here?"

He shakes his head, "the fucking aliens, they abducted you and even probed me! Good thing they did abduct you, otherwise you would've seen my big old di-"

"Dingo, I'm so happy that you're meeting the wildlife"

He smiles, "Okay baby girl, okay. You should probably shower too, it's 10am and Hanna says we're going out somewhere, I don't really know where, we're only here today and then we're flying home tomorrow because of some business stuff that has been called last minute"

I widen my eyes in surprise, confusion and a little bit of fear, "whose business stuff?"

I looks to the ground awkwardly holding a neutral expression on his face, "mine, but we don't-"

"What's it about?" I quickly cut him off, becoming more curious but how discreet and blunt he's being.

He mumbles something inaudible under his breath and sighs, "a tour"

"Really! Why are you upset? That's amazing oh my god I'm so happy for you!" I jump off of the bed and give him a rough but loving hug.

His eyes don't meet mine when we pull away, so I begin to suspect that something larger is going on in his head.

"Hey" I say softly, "what's going on in that mind of yours?"

He shakes his head, "nothin-"

"Clearly, thats why you're acting strange right? Tell me what's happening Edwin, you promised"

He finally locks eyes with me, and it's obvious that he's been crying.

"I'm worried, that's all"

I don't respond, so he continues. "Worried about you, and me. This isn't just a US tour Abigail, I think it's a world tour. I have a friend who went on one of these, and it was six months long. That kind of time not seeing each other can destroy relationships. It destroyed his"

I laugh, "you're kidding right? Edwin, it took me so fucking long to admit that I liked you, even longer to accept a label, and you think distance is going to throw it all away?"

"I don't know, maybe?"

"Well it's not, the only thing that's putting it at risk is your worrying. Our priority as a team should be making sure Simon is okay with it, if we can get through Simon, we can get through anything"

He smiles, "you're right, I'm just anxious that's all"

I widen my eyes as something clicks in my head, earning a confused look from Edwin.

I run over to my black suitcase and I grab out an oversized t-shirt and my hairbrush. I carelessly brush out all of my knots and I change into my top within two minutes, and I quickly put on a pair of socks and some knee high boots before looking at Edwin, who still appears to be confused.

I run over and give him a light kiss on the cheek, "I'll be back, two hours max"

"Bu-"

Before he's able to finish his sentence, I'm running through the hotel hallways and down the stairs at my top speed, headed somewhere that I know I need to go before I leave.
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It's short and rushed and I'm sorry but I'm back at school so I won't be able to update for a little while. Also August is a crazy month for me w traveling and shit.

Btw thanks for 8k? What the fuck? I love all of you fr

Im sorry for spelling and grammar mistakes but not really 🤪