Dear life,
How is it fair? How is it fair that i have to sit here and literally have to watch someone who has been a major part of my life just slowly die. How is it fair that i Have to lose everyone that has ever meant anything to me. This guy has been a part of my life since third grade for christs sake. and now i have to sit here and watch as he just lets his life style destroy him. Its not fair that i have to wake up every day not knowing if today is the day that i lose this person. Its not fair that i cant be attached to him like i used to be. What the fuck did i do to deserve this. why do i deserve to watch this guy just literally kill himself slowly. You know its fucked up. hes not the first person that i have had to watch die slowly. I cant stop it either why do i have to go through this bullshit again. And like its not even like i can wash my hands of him bc thats the thing i cant. he means too much to me. And all i can do is sit here and just watch as he slowly kills himself. HE knows whats happening. But he's to far in now that there is no way he can get out.
