poems

losing myself

i am losing myself in you
and i can't stand it.
i have lost who i was without you;
my dumb jokes, my strange sense of humor, my own way of speaking,
all to fit you.
you make it hard to be myself.
i can't say what i wish, in fear of upsetting you,
i can't stand your anger which comes from nowhere at times.
that pissy face and your quietness is nothing i enjoy to be around.
i don't know what to do though.
i love you and because of that i'm staying.
i can't say i miss you because i don't.
i would be able to go months without seeing you and i promise i know i'll be okay.
but i know you won't..
i am the epitome of your desires.
and that kills me.