Saviors [A SVU and Bensler Fan Fic]

[Chapter Twelve]

Tuesday morning was weird to say the least. I had to change all of my usual ways of getting ready, and I actually had to get up to my alarm so Cynthia and I could both have enough time to shower and get ready. Once Cynthia found some of my clothing that she could wear and feel comfortable in, we walked down stairs. I felt dead on my feet, and I didn't want to go to school.

"Morning girls." My father smiled, as he handed me a mug as I walked into the kitchen.

"Thanks." I mumbled, as I filled it up with coffee before going and grabbing creamer from the fridge.

"Do you think I'll be able to get my stuff?" Cynthia asked after a few moments of her just standing next to me.

"From the foster home?" My mother questioned, as she elbowed me so I'd remember Cynthia is still kinda my guest and I needed to make sure she got breakfast and didn't feel weird about asking for things.

"Yeah. I have pictures of my mother, and a necklace from her." Cynthia breathed, as I heard barking at the back door. I quickly went and let Bailey in, before walking back into the kitchen. My mother was embracing Cynthia and I guess she probably got a yes.

"Uh, I'll leave you two alone." I whispered, before quickly grabbing my bag and going towards the front door.

For some reason was jealous. I was jealous of my foster sister of sorts because she had my mother's attention.

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I sat in the car for about an hour before my mother came out with Cynthia. They both came out and Cynthia opened the front door.

"Olivia, can I sit up here? I get carsick when I sit in the back." She breathed, and I nodded slowly.

"Of course. Uh, do we have like five more minutes?" I questioned, as my mother started up the car.

"Sorry love. We have to get going. I gotta take Cynthia to see her case worker, so I'm dropping you off at my office." She questioned, and I frowned.

"That's almost two miles away from school. Can't you just drop me off first?" I questioned, but she shook her head.

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I walked to school and when I walked to my locker, Elliot was already standing there, looking at his watch.

I went to turn and walk away because I was feeling awkward, but he saw me and quickly called my name. I turned back and smiled a bit as I want to my locker.

"Hey, El." I breathed, and he smiled before leaning in to kiss me. Our lips barely touched before I was looking at my lock.

"You're kinda late. Are you okay?" He questioned, and I frowned as I opened my locker.

"Cynthia had some stuff to do this morning, so I had to walk two miles from the CPS office. I stepped in gum and had a car splash water on me." I huffed, as I ran my hands through my hair.

"You could've called me." He replied, and I frowned.

"I didn't call you because I'm feeling weird about..." I trailed off, and Elliot bit his lip.

"Neither of us had did that before. It was awkward, but I wouldn't trade it for the world." He breathed, and I shrugged.

"Yeah, but maybe we shouldn't have so soon. We have only been together for two years, and we are both teenagers."

"Liv!" He exclaimed, and I frowned before walking away.

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I didn't go home with Elliot, and my mother never came to pick me up. So I walked towards my father's precinct. 

I started to feel really alone. I did push my boyfriend away because it sounded like I regretted giving myself to him, but I didn't really. I was just embarrassed. 

Then it was my mother. She seemed to like Cynthia more than me. I know she needs help, and I want her to get help, but I also still want my parents. I want my mom.

When I arrived at the precinct, my father was getting out of his squad car and was sighing as he and Munch talked about their case.

"Dad!" I exclaimed, and it took me saying it three times before he realized it was me.

"Liv? What are you doing here?" He asked.

"Mom didn't pick me up and Elliot and I got into a fight. I was wondering if I could just hang out here till you go home." I spoke, and he looked around for a moment before frowning.

"We are dealing with a hard case, kid. Come up and call Elliot, because I don't want you seeing this all."

"Dad please." I frowned, and he shook his head.

"I'm sorry kid. Why don't I call you a cab?" He questioned, and I shook my head.

"No. I'll walk. I'll see you tonight." I frowned.

"Liv, come on! Don't be like this!" My father yelled after me, and I turned around and stared at him.

"The case you are dealing with is Cynthia's. Mom spent all day with her, and she didn't even call me to tell me that she wouldn't be able to come get me. Elliot is angry at me because I'm so damn awkward when it comes to all of this girlfriend stuff and I slept with him! I thought I was ready but I wasn't!" I blurted out, before turning and walking away.

Didn't want to tell my father that I lost my virginity, but I guess that just happened.

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When I got home, my mother wasn't there with Cynthia. It was nearly 6 by the time I got home, so I just ate a bowel of cereal that I didn't get a chance to eat this morning. Then I went and did my homework in my room with my door locked. I didn't want to give anyone a chance to come in and make things worse because in this moment, I was just so upset that I started to feel how I felt when I was with Serena. How so didn't seem to care about me, and didn't even ask me about my day, or call me when she was going to be late. I was 2 when she would start leaving me at the apartment by myself, and I didn't want to feel that bad again.

I heard the door knob try to turn, but then the person knocked on the door. It was almost 8 by now, and someone was finally home.

"Olivia, are you in there?" Cynthia questioned, and I sighed.

"Can you leave me alone?" I groaned.

"Are-"

"Just leave me alone!" I cried.

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